the current issue Posted by poolboyjames on April 18, 2010 at 7:19 PM comments (0)recently i've been dealing with this umm.. like.. incredible lack of energy
i've been trying to figure out what's going on and i'm not exactly sure the fact is i gotta just get out of this little slump i keep taking naps when i haven't even exerted myself.. i've been waking up tired and just remaining that way its like for the past few days someone attached two 60lb weights on me and i don't know where they are, to me they are invisible.. but at the same time they are just as real as anything it helps when i think about having a chance to finally make music again.. i miss it so much letting music go has allowed me to focus my energy into my actual LIFE and its been great but i am hoping its time for me to dig back into audio-land again music for me is like a realm where everything makes sense and i really miss that world i want to be able to just lock myself in a sound-proof studio and go at it.. my greatest wish in life is to just be able to forget that the world exists and make what i deem to be perfect music this has pretty much been the case since i was about 16 i remember in high school we took that career aptitude test and it said i should be an artist of some sort i also remember i used to come home from school, start making beats.. then i'd look at the clock and it would be like 10pm and i would be like U CAN'T BE SERIOUS.. and it always gave me a sense of comfort because at school i had a very hard time focusing and so i felt like there was something wrong with me but the music made me realize i was actually capable of focusing on something deeply for hours so i don't know.. i just miss being able to do music and that may be a part of my issue right now through God's grace i was able to let go of music for 2 years (to get my life together) but maybe its beginning to wear off as like a sign that its time to pick it back up again i still have a few things i gotta get before i go back in the music zone a new mic, mic stand, midi keyboard, and more i am hoping everything will come together and i will be able to properly express all this stuff that gets lodged in my head.. ....and recapture my sanity peaCe
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