broadcasting live... Posted by poolboyjames on November 25, 2010 at 11:02 AM comments (0)its thanksgiving day n i'm broadcasting live from my parents house n ish
++++++ the past few weeks at school have been hectic i could probably talk about school on here a lot more and probably entertain you quite a bit.. but honestly i just prefer not to talk about school i prefer to ignore my thoughts and feelings about it and instead just do it.. this way i stay relatively positive at the end of the day no matter how bad school feels, its an opportunity to better my position in life and its something within my reach.. all debating and hating stop there however i will say that this 2 day break is MUCH appreciated lolz moving on... ++++++ my friend devon sometimes tells me that the things i say on blogs or songs or whatever are helpful and/or on time for situations in her life or sometimes she says that the things i say are insightful to her.. is there a name for this phenomenon? when a person seems to unconsciously do things that remain relevant to your life.. what do u call that? imo when u have that sort of connection with an artist or writer or filmmaker.. that's an invaluable (priceless) thing ++++++ one thing i want to talk about is this.. i'm tired of people telling me i'm always wrong in dealing with girls i always need to adjust my approach or "be more aggressive" or "take it slower" SMH.. like i'm so tired of it you wouldn't believe it how about someone just accept me for who i am for once? why is it that i'm always expected to know everything a girl thinks before she thinks it and then i'm expected to execute some sort of casanova romance with flawless perfection? like say i go on a date and its bad then someone will be like "what happened?" and i'll tell them and its never like "oh she shouldn't have done that" or "wow she really messed up when she did that!" nope.. that's never the case instead its like people always wonder what i'm doing wrong "next time you should..." "call her back up and apologize for..." "you shouldn't have said..." see its like... i used to take all the advice and try my best to apply it but i don't care anymore.. look, if things don't work out i'm not going to blame myself for it anymore it is what it is.. i'm 26 and i'm not changing or adjusting anymore.. i'm james.. if people don't like me for whatever reason then that's their problem, not mine i'm so sick of adjusting "for the next one" look i'm just going to be me and do me regardless, if a girl turns me down i'm not going to see that as a personal failure anymore i can't spend my life chasing some elusive fantasy life, i don't know about u but my life isn't a romantic comedy movie.. at the end of the day someone is going to have to like me for me i play video games, i sit at home too much, i am always on the computer, i don't dance, i laugh for no reason, i have no muscles, i don't have a lot of money, i eat taco bell like everyday n ish i am me, and i have a lot of good traits too but u will probably never see them unless u exercise some patience with me enough to get to know me for who i am like if someone doesn't like me then that's not my fault.. my faith is not in me anymore i'm revoking that and putting it in God i can only do what i can do i can give a girl compliments, i can be loyal, i can be thoughtful, i can work for her, i can lift her above my head as i walk through quicksand.. these are things i can do.. i can be a man this is what i can do.. as for the rest of this superficial tv stuff? ..lol smh i'm not an athlete or a doctor and i don't look like an action figure but THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH ME as a matter of fact, from now on i'm going to place the blame on everyone BUT me! cuz i've internalized rejection for so long that i can't take it anymore so if i am text driving and i slam into the back of ur car at night.. guess what ngga? ITS YOUR FAULT (metaphor for the dating realm) so yeah.. no more accepting blames for me.. if you don't like me thats your problem and i'm not changing.. at the end of the day i'd rather have a woman from God's hands than my own anyway.. so the method is stay with God and get what He has for me as opposed to trying to live up to society's impossible and ever-changing standards of what a real or desirable man is ++++++ ^i didn't expect to say that much meh... peaCe n Luvs
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