"my 08 self" Posted by poolboyjames on November 14, 2010 at 10:08 PM comments (3)i've never told anyone this but here's something that goes on in my head from time to time... i compare myself to myself
in 2008 i had a lot of problems mainly i flunked out of college for the second time that year i still lived with my parents i still had no job or girlfriend i was still in debt $3000 from my car i got in late 2007 but during the summer of that year i came to the resolve that i was going to be as strong as possible in every given circumstance i decided every time a negative thought came, i was going to fight it.. like not just ignore it but seriously fight it and push through everything i was going through.. no lethargic moping.. no dragging of my feet.. just.. "lets keep pushing and stay positive at every moment" i was faced with a lot of adversity, both outer and inner but i stayed rock solid positive and made the right decisions about everything despite a myriad of problems i was so disciplined it was insane my food portions got cut my exercise went up my work ethic (looking for employment went up) my relationships remained in tact (i didn't neglect my friends) i used patience in dealing with negative comments about me and my situations the list goes on that august a beautiful girl came into my life and showed me a lot of love and support in the time we dated i eventually ended up with the highest paying and best job i ever had in september of that year i was getting nice clothes and getting respect from people who had been making fun of me i began building my studio that people never thought would be built things began to change for me this time in my life is now remembered as one of the best times of my life what i learned from that was that true happiness comes from hard work and discipline don't get me wrong, it wasn't easy.. but it paid off it wasn't easy because sometimes i remember i wanted to go to sleep instead of work on my resume but i worked on it anyway.. sometimes i wanted to say something mean to people who thought i was a "bum".. but i chose patience and to not get upset at them.. sometimes it was really hot outside and i didn't want to work out but i went out there and did it anyway etc. etc. this time of extreme discipline remains a source of strength for me even to this day i had no reason to smile or be happy or to think i could accomplish anything but i just grew a backbone and said, hey.. i'm going to do right, live right, be positive and happy and pro-active and it was great these days i always compare me to "my 08 self" i haven't been living up to the 08 james much recently but i hope i can get back to that it was amazing seeing so many things change for me from bad to good during that year with God's help i can do it again! lets go!!
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