on my mind Posted by poolboyjames on June 16, 2010 at 9:11 PM comments (0)i'm a bit scattered today
kinda have a lot on my mind i get weary of the fact that when i tell people things that are very important to me they don't help me out sometimes like if i tell u a vulnerability don't laugh at me u know what i'm sayin? i just told someone about something i deal with and they laughed at me and i'm like dang can i get some support here? but its my world and i have to be the captain of the ship, the master of my domain sometimes i think no one understands me.. and i sometimes wish someone had the patience with me to WANT to understand me u kno what i'm sayin? (probably not) i've felt this way for a long time this is why i like to do music cuz i feel like i can let things out and almost force people to understand in a sense its like i'm searching for a validation i never get from real life.. like u know how some people have groups or they have a 'niche' or they are in a club or a crowd they fit into? well i don't i am always just james in everything i always feel like the odd man out even in the realm of music i don't fit cuz i am rapping but i'm not using curse words or disrespecting women or shooting people or bragging, or even trying to be cool.. i am just expressing myself as is its always been this way when i was little and my friends lived in the projects i lived in the suburbs on a dirt road when i got older i was the only black guy in my grade in college i never really fit cuz i don't spend my time at bars or smoking weed or whatever its like in order to ever feel at home in anything i have to create it myself, thus this website, thus my lyrics, thus my beats, thus everything i do but whatevz peaCe
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