reasons Posted by poolboyjames on October 14, 2010 at 9:47 PM comments (0)lately i've been deleting a lot of my blog entries (like i'll post one and in 24 hours i've already deleted it)
this is because my confidence has been thrown off it takes a measure of confidence to do something and put it out there for the public i am going to try and stop deleting my entries another thing is, i've been having hard times emotionally lately dealing with a lot of negative emotions and not wanting to wallow in them and talk about everything on here i would enjoy talking about my problems if i thought they'd help someone else however i don't know if anyone who reads this would understand me as a person i have some issues that other people don't understand sometimes because i am a one of a kind person when i say one of a kind i don't mean that in an arrogant way, i mean seriously like.. like the other day someone told me i'm "weird" ... like i think very independently and ish.. the way i react to things sometimes is very atypical but again.. i will try to keep all my entries up as much as possible! i do feel a sense of responsibility on my website so bare with me and i will continue to try my best to bring decent topics and discussions and thoughts and things
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index 2 da sky Posted by poolboyjames on October 14, 2010 at 8:19 AM comments (0)ok so this (video) is right on time for me cuz i've been so tiredof women in general
nothing with women has been working out for me lately at all and my frustration has reached an all-time high.. its has threatened to develop into low self esteem for me and hatred toward women again, this is RIGHT ON TIME two funny things about this video 1. i used to be subscribed to this guy on youtube but i'm not anymore.. i haven't been for months.. but he popped in my head just now and this was his latest video so imagine that.. i get a message i need right when i need it out of nowhere i just woke up and he popped in my head so i searched him on youtube and found this i have to just be thankful i'm not left alone to wallow in my own frustrations (thanks God!) *index 2 da sky** 2. i don't know if this is further confirmation that this video is FOR ME or further confirmation that my ideas are valid ... his point about will smith and pepa from salt n' pepa actually came from me months ago i went to one of his videos a while back and responded to it pointing out that women unjustly turn down decent guys and i gave the example of pepa playing will smith to the side "BECAUSE HE WAS TOO NICE" then she got with treach and LITERALLY took beatings regularly the reason i know this guy who made the youtube video got inspiration from my idea here is because months ago he actually responded to my comment.. i believe i made a bit of an impression.. what i said stuck because it made so much sense (not being arrogant, just saying) actually.. just to prove this i will go and find the video (shouldn't be hard to find) and ctrl-f my name and show u what was said.. this is a straight copy and paste from youtube (i'm videoshirt) videoshirt 7 months ago ok.. umm.. u said no girl would really turn down a will smith type of dude.. pepa from salt n pepa wrote a book.. she said will smith won a grammy and was courting pep at the time.. this dude was successful and interested in pep.. pep TURNED HIM DOWN and went for TREACH who beat the shit out of her.. don't believe me? READ HER BOOK!!! I am aware of her book and the story. Pepa falls into the category of woman that I discussed in part one. She initially wants a bad boy type, but later, (after she has gotten older and less desirable) she wants to change and get a "good man". There is no cure all to keep a man from never getting rejected. You are not going to go through life and not encounter a "Pepa" at some point. Listen to what I said starting at 1:55. The Pepas of the world aren't worth your time and energy anyway. JunebugObama 7 months ago funny.. 7 months pass and i need to re-take a crash course in lessons i've already learned i agree Posted by poolboyjames on October 14, 2010 at 7:33 PM comments (0)MAN!!! i want to post this on facebook SO bad but i feel bad posting something with such language on there!!!
but i REALLY want to post it because the underlying message is on point.. oh wellz without further ado... my favorite quote from the girl in her letter is when she said: "i feel that it's been a waste of time because i could've been with someone who wanted to love me as opposed to just f*** me all the time" when i hear that, i can see she's beginning to understand things for what they really are.. she's beginning to see things beyond their deceptive nature this is the girl with the "bad boy" well in my life, i am the "good guy" and i sometimes really wish i could find a woman who actually wanted to be loved as opposed to just used i will give an example of what i mean.. when u can find one good or decent guy u can find more because a decent amount of his friends will be similar to him so the other day i noticed one of my friends status on Facebook it said "i wish i could give a girl a compliment and it not be misconstrued as me trying to get in her pants" (not a direct quote.. paraphrased from memory) think about that.. there are good dudes out here who want to give compliments to women.. guys who desire to uplift a woman's spirits but when they do they are seen as perverted or shot down for being "desperate" or whatever else, u see what i mean? its like so often the good guys are seen as bad and the bad guys are seen as good so when this girl says: "i feel that it's been a waste of time because i could've been with someone who wanted to love me as opposed to just f*** me all the time" i think wow.. she's getting it.. she's beginning to see through the fog of lies the media teaches about how bad guys r desirable, see through the fog of lies of how a guy is only worth something if he's "hard to get".. she's beginning to see how believing these lies is destructive for me.. that alone was worth the price of admission makes me feel a little better that some women will see things for what they are.. lets just hope they don't all have to get used and abused before they realize what's real.. save the best for the best as opposed to giving pearls to swine let's go!! yepz Posted by poolboyjames on October 13, 2010 at 10:16 PM comments (0)my life is facepalm worthy, unworthy, nerdy
displaced, out of place, locate a space, insert me on the outside gettin rained on from cloud 9 about to cry & they wonder why i'm doubtin life shoutin high from the top of the mountainside i'm out my mind feelin like i'm bout to die you say its on me but dog i'm lonely just be a homie i'm on knees, come on please meh forget it, i guess i'm not good enough kicked in the nuts when i thought things were lookin up a little somethin i wrote today^^ not meant to be depressing, just an expression of feelings and thoughts further confirmation Posted by poolboyjames on October 13, 2010 at 10:29 PM comments (0)i have said it before and i'll say it again
i really dislike people who go to church and go insane when i was little, old ladies would go crazy and elbow me in the head i grew up in church thinking i was weird because my honest little self never decided to PLAY church i thought "wow, God is touching these people in ways He never touches me.. so i guess i'm unworthy" as i got older.. actually this past summer 2010, i learned what God is really about on a personal level i began to see through things and see myself and see God and who He is a lot better and tonight, i ran across this.. which is further confirmation watch if u will i posted all of it.. however if u just watch the first two, you will get what i'm talking about watch the rest if u feel like it, but the first two are what i mostly recommend (also, if u have time, check out the 3 minute mark on the 4th video.. SMH.. no need for explanation) peaceful. Posted by poolboyjames on October 13, 2010 at 9:19 PM comments (0)
i love this game Posted by poolboyjames on October 10, 2010 at 11:33 AM comments (0)here's to metal gear solid 4.. which is in my opinion the bestgame of all time
i beat this game over a year ago and i seem to just love it more and more everything about it is amazing and epic.. the depth of this gameto me is absolutely incredible.. i like a lot of games but this one really takes the cake.. and its a ps3 exclusive.. imo this game alone warrants buying the system top 10 things i hate Posted by poolboyjames on October 9, 2010 at 11:40 AM comments (0)off the top of my head.....
summer worthless females not having video games (but i have some!) bad music people who don't believe in God homework lectures car trouble unemployment being awake but tired at the same time a basic wish Posted by poolboyjames on October 9, 2010 at 1:16 PM comments (0)can i have a girl who dresses sexy like this?
that would be really nice someone who would dress like this for a special occasion WITH ME HOLDING HER ARM.. NOT ALONE or "out with the girls" a girl who would save the best for me.. u know if ur going to use ur body and look sexy then look sexy with me and make me look good.. so people can be like wow james has a really pretty girl.. it would be nice to feel like i have someone valuable i would repay her with infinite gratitude! thank you for putting forth effort into being the best you can be for me i appreciate you looking good for me and with me goodbye hello Posted by poolboyjames on October 9, 2010 at 4:41 PM comments (2)i want to move to seattle as soon as i graduate
tennessee has been cool but i'm so tired of the fact that its summer 85% of the year and it never rains it bothers me the other day a girl asked me why i like the rain so much.. i said "cuz it matches my mood" she stood there in disbelief and i said "well u asked" goodbye tennessee.. i'll be happy when i leave u and ur people i don't get along with |
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