music is a woman Posted by poolboyjames on March 11, 2010 at 6:50 AM comments (0)one thing i have noticed is music to me is basically a woman
music has my love kinda in the same way a girlfriend or wife would have my love i have to plot, plan, and prepare to have them in my life i have to be able to say 'no' to both at times, because if u don't say no then whatever u keep saying yes to will abuse u and suck u dry another similar aspect is like if ur an artist, sometimes u feel inspired/creative.. that is like the music equivalent to feeling horny/aroused by women one plus side about music is i don't think there is a way music could ever cheat on me all of her actions are dependent on my actions.. she is a mirrorimage of myself its an odd way to see it, but this sort of stuff gets lodged in my head and it becomes my reality
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u hate blessings LOL Posted by poolboyjames on March 9, 2010 at 8:02 PM comments (0)i was watching the real world on mtv the other day for a second
in the short amount of time i watched it, one girl accused another girl of being spoiled she deemed her spoiled because her parents helped her to acquire and keep things ok.. here's my thing people have done this to me also they see my parents having a nice house and they see this or that and they think they can label me spoiled and when they deem me spoiled it always comes with something else that is negative.. i have to be spoiled and lazy and incompetent i've never really had a chance to say my opinion about this outloud.. to be honest i've never really sat and thought about it.. but seeing it on the real world really brought it to my attention here's the thing people automatically have resentment to people who grow up in good families with good morals, happiness, and money they automatically have a certain attitude in the way they talk about families that seem well-off i've seen it happen time and time again.. it always happened to me and i've seen it happen to other people we get hated on just because we grew up blessed that is not a reason to hate on someone the fact is these people are jealous.. but jealousy to me is stupid in general being jealous is like completely discarding your own blessings and whining because someone else's blessings look better to you from your (limited and immature) perspective how are u ever going to have anything in your life when u do this? is God gonna say, "Oh he doesn't appreciate anything i've given him, so let me give him more" ??? NO is God gonna say "All he does is hate on a family that i have shown my favor to.. so i'm going to take their blessing and give it to him!" ??? NO personally i don't understand hate really at all anymore because any energy i could spend hatin on someone, i could just as soon turn my head and not pay them any attention for example i used to talk bad about rappers i didn't like but i just don't even understand why i used to do that anymore what is the point of trying to convince other people that a rapper isn't good, or isn't real, or isn't skilled, when i could instead just let people listen to what they like and i can spend my time and money supporting what i like hating on someone in my opinion is like signing up for a headache.. to hate on something in my opinion is a waste of your own time, you could be enjoying something but instead u want to focus on, and express disdain for something u don't even enjoy but anyway back to the original matter people don't have the knowledge or the right to deem someone else spoiled this one girl said i was spoiled and the way she spoke to me was completely condescending.. she spoke to me as if i never had a single challenge in my life and as if i could screw up toast without supervision i remember i didn't really feel that i had to prove her wrong, i remember just wondering where she got the motivation and audacity to assume so much about me with such a small view of me and my life.. well now i know it came from her own insecurity and jealousy her saying i was incompetent and that my parents overcompensated was like her way of saying "after i have seen the blessings and efficiency of your family, i feel like i have always had to overcompensate for my own parents' incompetence.. but instead of acknowledging that, i would rather flip the situation and make u feel like lesser, because ultimately that will make me feel like i have the true one-up on you in the end" the fact is u can't know me or what i've been through unless u ARE me the same goes for everyone so my point is.. people should just stop hating and stop making foolish assumptions about other people and their lives focus on your own life and on the things you enjoy peaCe wow. Posted by poolboyjames on March 8, 2010 at 7:52 AM comments (0)just saw this on facebook:
"going to finish up this paper - might be pulling an all nighter! good night everyone! uhh .. the life of a collage student " SMH my definition Posted by poolboyjames on March 7, 2010 at 10:33 AM comments (0)so spring break is here
i was thinking about what people are doing vs. what i want to do and a thought occurred to me my view of what spring BREAK is, is different from what many other people see it as our views are different because we have different values and thus different priorities people are going on trips and going on vacations and ish to be honest when someone says BREAK to me, i say ok time to rest, time to regroup, time to get things back in order i don't naturally say to myself, let me skip all my friday classes by leaving on thursday, hitch a plane and party for a week then come back the sunday before classes start again i say.. ok what have i been putting off? my car needs to be cleaned on the inside, then washed i need to get a hair cut i need to mow the lawn i need to run some errands i have time to cook a meal that will last a week i can watch this show i've been missing i need to write out some short term goals to help myself keep things in perspective what can i get started on or finish before school starts again? what were my problems last semester and how can i remedy those? etc. etc. see.. now.. if i get all that done then sure it may be a lot of fun to go out and just do something really "fun" but see fun for me tends to remain in the realm of hobbies, and goal setting/achievement like i was watching an interview with 50cent and he is worth like over $400million so the interviewer was like, u can just relax.. so do u vacation a lot? he was like "yeah i sometimes vacation.. but it tends to get boring to me.. like i'm sitting on a boat.. but after a while its like.. i'm just sitting on a boat" ^^(recited from my remembrance.. not a direct quote) and that's how i feel normally.. like whatever i want to do is in the realm of a hobby, i.e. video games, music, website, art, media entertainment or goal setting/achievement (figuring out how to attract and keep certain good things), i.e. grades, physical fitness, women, money so.. that's me i can't really separate myself from having a strong sense of foresight so for me, spring break is a time to rest, recover, regroup and get my life in better working order, to enhance efficiency and get ready for the 2nd half of the semester and for upcoming events in the year i'm not downing people who want to get away from their life, spend money and party i'm just saying i'd kinda rather do the opposite.. re-evaluate my life, conserve money/save/spend wisely, and have a time of quiet my definition of break is much diff than many other peoples' wordage (again, i'm not dissing people who party or go on vacations, that is cool, i sometimes really admire that, i'm just stating how we are different) peaCe! lo-fi Posted by poolboyjames on March 6, 2010 at 2:32 PM comments (0)one thing that bothers me is how phones have not evolved in sound quality for years
if anything it seems the sound quality has gotten worse if we have high definition tv then why can't we get high definition audio? phones should also have background noise canceling technology i just text people because everything is so annoying on the phone if it sounded good and i didn't hear 10 billion other sounds in the background then things would be diff but since its so bad i just text, i use like zero minutes of my unlimited plan am i the only one bothered by the sound of talking to someone on the phone? the cutting in and out, the background noise, the low level sound quality in general blah how will he react? Posted by poolboyjames on March 5, 2010 at 11:01 PM comments (2)ok
men want women, they want female attention and affection, they want to know SOME woman cares about them on some love, romantic, or sexual level so say u r a decent dude right.. and u go through teens and early 20s being dissed and ignored by women completely say u are a very practical dude, so u lack certain traits that women find attractive.. say u spend ur money on your hobbies or you save or something, so u don't have the nicest clothes say your social skills are moderate so u never really stand out anywhere u go, ur not terrible but ur not exactly signing autographs either say u stay busy with your hobbies or education so u don't have the best body in the world.. ur not super out of shape but ur not a woman's first choice in the body department because u don't spend all your time in the gym or getting tans or putting gel in your hair say basically you are a decent guy but u've been overlooked for years and years by the female population in general now guys want females, period. that's just how it is so chances are you develop a bit of a resentment toward women "that guy treats her like sh*t, but he gets everything she has to offer" "i am not perfect myself, but i also don't deserve to be completely discarded and deemed worthless by the collective female population" so say u have this resentment about women so say u get in ur late 20s or 30s and u are still the same dude right u didn't spend all ur money on frivolous things, u stayed focused when everyone else was partying and ish, you don't flaunt what u have but its obvious to everyone you are stable, you have everything you need, you are independent, you have no kids or emotional ties because u have largely been ignored by women your whole life, you seem to have a quiet maturity that other men lack you have your own place, you have 2 cars but u don't seem to have a girlfriend to drive the other one, you are doing what u love, you gave up chasing women because their rejection has left you jaded.. instead you focus on your career your body is better now because instead of studying all day, you have a job that is not very demanding.. your job has a gym that is free and open to all employees so u've been working out everyday since you got hired so say women begin noticing these traits and all of a sudden they want you you notice all your jokes seem funnier to women they hang around longer and ask about your personal life women of all types seem to be much more present you wonder what's going on my question is... how does the guy in this situation.. (who has been ignored for the better part of his life, and who already has pent up resentment toward women) not become a super hoe? like seriously if u go from zero female attention for YEARS to all of a sudden you get treated like a celebrity or hero by women women are giving you their number, they're asking you your favorite color and then wearing it to work the next day, they're incredibly inviting and attentive now on every level HOW DOES THIS MAN NOT BECOME A HOE? how does this man who has NEVER HAD A CHOICE OF WOMEN, finally have 1,000 choices, and ACTUALLY CHOOSE? how does he come to a decision about who to marry? how does he remain monogamous if he DOES marry? how does he even come to the conclusion that marriage is justified when he has gone from 0 female interest to 10billion female interest in such a short amount of time? what WILL the man do with his newfound attention and "support" from women? and conversely, what SHOULD, the man do? sound off if u wish i am not giving an opinion or making any statements, i am literally just putting this very common scenario out there and asking what u think these situations and questions should be considered both literal and rhetorical indecency (for shame) Posted by poolboyjames on March 4, 2010 at 2:49 AM comments (0)
sometimes i get more information than i want like i may say "what do u like to do for fun" to someone and they may say "go shopping, watch movies, (insert innappropriate sexual term here)" then i just stand there, not really knowing what to say what is the deal? why do people talk so casually about what should be private matters? and obviously i can't speak for everyone, but to me what u do sexually is a private matter.. i feel as though people have no real gage dictating what is ok to talk about and what is off limits to me this is basic TACT but a lot of people just plain don't have it it irritates me when people just share things that are gross, unexpected, personal, and/or flat-out ridiculous with no type of warning or even reason interview Posted by poolboyjames on March 4, 2010 at 4:13 AM comments (0)so recently i saw an old howard stern where he interviewed eminem
this was when "my name is" (eminem's 1st single) had just blown up man white people were hatin on eminem so bad on this interview!! the whole time it was people calling in and accusing eminem of "acting black" "you're acting black and u have no talent" ^^mindblowing ignorance its all lies Posted by poolboyjames on March 4, 2010 at 9:36 PM comments (0)one thing that really gets on my nerves is how when single moms raise their kids they blame so much on the dad
like for example, i kno a girl who always thought her dad was a particular guy.. she thought her dad just never picked up the phone to call her or see her, when in reality that likely wasn't even her dad.. when the girl turned 23 her mom admitted her dad was likely someone else, but she never told her that over the years because she "didn't want her daughter to think less of her" the point is, all these women are not telling the truth about their kids fathers they can tell their kid ANYTHING! like when u watch maury and they do paternity tests and they test 12 guys and they STILL don't have a match then u realize many women are NOT who they portray themselves to be so i hate it when i turn on tv and i see some kid like "i never knew my dad, so i hate his guts" WELL WHAT IF UR DAD NEVER KNEW U EXISTED? WHAT IF UR MOM WAS THE TOWN JUMP-OFF AND SHE HAD NO KIND OF FORESIGHT OR COMMON SENSE OR INTEGRITY ABOUT HER BODY WHAT IF U ARE THE RESULT OF A ONE NIGHT STAND AND UR MOM DOESNT EVEN KNOW YOUR DAD'S FIRST NAME? if ur mom knows ur dad really is a deadbeat who doesn't claim his kids, then she would at least get him to pay child support wouldn't she? so if she's not at least claiming child support then chances are she is lying to you and everyone else about what's really going on she likely doesn't know who the dad is for all u know ur dad could be a stand-up guy (with his own family and business now) who thought ur mom was on the pill SO STOP BLAMING EVERYTHING ON MEN!!!!!!!!! i'm out! Posted by poolboyjames on March 3, 2010 at 9:21 PM comments (0)i used to live with my parents and i've been living in a different city for a while now
here are some of the cool things about moving away (in no particular order) 1. i am not de-valued by family anymore they were not very nice when i stayed back with them.. i was just a burden at every given moment 2. i can hear myself think for once i don't have to deal with my family's opinions and input FINALLY its amazing however at the same time i can see how not having any person holding me accountable for my actions could be a negative but for right now its great 3. i don't have to do chores i mean i do chores but they're for ME, and they're on MY terms and i do them when i want 4. come and go as i please 5. have visitors as i please the list goes on but those 5 are a big part of it yall keep it bonkahz |
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