**the video i included below is a must watch for anyone into this topic!!!** when i was with my ex g/f she always tried to leave me at terrible times.. not only did she try to leave me at terrible times but she would just flip the script on me and get mad and be totally unpleasable at terrible times at the time i didn't notice it because narcissist/jezebels always find a way to deflect and blame you for their behavior.. so what happens is you end up getting caught up in explaining yourself instead of seeing what they are doing to you and how they are playing head games my ex was the WORST girlfriend EVER!!! i remember one time we were in the mall and i picked up a ball that i found and i bounced it a few times and she immediately walked out of the mall saying i was immature and she treated me like crap for hours afterward.. i know you may be like, "that's crazy- why didn't you just break up with her?" but i was more in "trying to understand her" mode than i was "you're not going to treat me this way" mode one other time we were legit wrestling for like an hour and i got her in a hold and she told me to let her go and i said no and she got up and started crying and packing her things to leave.. smh it was like a 3 hour drive back to her house like why would you cry and leave me just because i held you in a hold for an extra 10 seconds? she would just up and leave me in moments where we should have been having peace.. or she would up and get upset at me at terrible moments, like after a nice dinner out together.. my ex g/f always seemed to want to leave me in a moment where I would be extremely confused and traumatized and in a state where the issue at hand remains unresolved.. the video sheds light on it so i get it now.. but at the time i was going through all this stuff i was just in the lion's den.. when you're with this type of person you can't really catch your breath enough to figure anything out.. you're always in another argument, or struggle, or fight, or you have earned their approval for a fleeting minute, or you're clamoring for it There were so many times where i would try to show her a good time and what followed it would be her attempting to leave me or treat me with contempt.. the video talks about these people leaving you when you're at a low point in your life, my ex however seemed to just want to leave me in confusion and in pain and she also seemed to have a thing for wanting to leave me like, after a good time or when there should be a peaceful moment.. have you ever had a great time with someone and had them just flip on you and demonize you and threaten to leave you? let me tell you something, its not something you notice when it happens because its really just too traumatic but this video shed a lot of light on that for me.. and what's crazy is, I DIDNT LOOK FOR THIS VIDEO! that's what trips me out so much because this was on my mind but i wasn't sure if anyone else had experienced it.. then it just showed up and explained everything my ex always seemed to leave me at the worst times where i'd just do almost anything to keep her from leaving because of the moment.. like its hard to explain.. like let me put it like this its one thing to leave a movie and go to the bathroom during the previews its another thing to leave a movie and go to the bathroom during the climax of the film same principle here.. these people always find the worst moment to leave u where you will be in extreme pain, shock, and/or confusion during those moments you just feel desperate and (i'll say it again) CONFUSED out of your mind maybe at some point in her life someone hurt her and when it was over she was confused and there was no closure.. the attack made on her made no sense, she was just left to deal with it.. and so she reenacts that or perhaps no one did this to her and she was just so self absorbed that she needed to elicit a response from me and didn't care how it made me feel either way really glad i found this video.. it validates a lot of my experience!!!!
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