here's a little story i don't think i ever told
this is just a thing that happened in my life when i was in high school i was dating a bubbly white girl named chrissy during this time, i used to sit next to a cute black girl on the busride to school... we used to sit next to each other like every day i don't remember her name but she was pretty, she was light skinned, she had a little brother, and she was the same religion as me at the time which was apostolic (i was raised apostolic however as an adult i just consider myself christian or non-denominational or whatever) apostolics are basically just christians, but they tend to be more strict her and i used to talk about whatever, and she was really cool and sweet and really nice to me... this girl actually could've been my girlfriend if i didn't already have one at the time.. well one day we got on the topic of sex.. i don't remember how we got on it- it might've been after prom or something so she asked me if i had sex with my girlfriend... i remember this girl was always single but i was always with chrissy the answer was of course no... but for some reason i wanted to say something other than that... i guess i was just being immature or maybe i wanted to see how she would react if i acted like i had sex so she kept asking me if i had sex with her and i kept telling her i didn't want to talk about it.. so finally at the end of the bus ride she came to the conclusion that i did have sex and i just let her believe that looking back this was just not a smart move for me she seemed disappointed almost to the point of anger the worst part was, she never spoke to me again after that i remember one day i saw her in the hallway and i was like hey what's up! yo! and she just walked into her class like she didn't even hear me or see me (sidenote: this was very hurtful and confusing to me at the time) then a little after i graduated i saw her at kroger one day and i was like hey lets exchange numbers.. she kinda just stood there.. i called her later and she never answered i think she was really disappointed in me.. she must've been thinking i had sex and thinking i was just some sort of scumbag who didn't hold onto his beliefs i guess she lost respect for me and it was just gone after that looking back though, i like her reaction on some level.. while i think she could've been a little more lenient (cuz i would have eventually told her i was just messing around) i still think she was somewhat justified in feeling let down... and looking back- it also shows me she had standards, which is something i respect one day if i get a chance to look in our old yearbook again i would like to look her up and see how she's doing
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