february was diff from january because in february i felt like i had a lot more spiritual responsibilities and thoughts
the pastor at church said we should apologize to people for things we've done.. even if it was like 10yrs ago.. he said we should just listen to what God puts on our heart and whatever He brings to our remembrance- we should apologize for it so i thought about some of the things i did to people and i apologized to some people.. it was hard.. its not hard to apologize to people immediately, or like a day later.. but if u did something years ago, its hard to apologize for it because u are really just hoping the person forgot about that ish i honestly didn't even finish it though... i just did a few and stopped.. i might finish it though one interesting thing though is it seems like God really wanted me to participate because i didn't want to do it but i felt like God took away my peace until i finally did the first one it was weird.. for like a day or two i was trying to avoid doing it but i just had no peace and it finally got to a point where i couldn't take it anymore i found that to be really interesting because i really felt like that was God.. i'm not a person who says "God said this" or "God did this" a lot because i feel like sometimes people do that and they are wrong, and i have enough reverence to not just say that kind of stuff all the time.. but in this case, i really felt like God took my peace until i finally took a step on the apology thing it honestly felt like a fatherly type of thing as soon as i got that first apology situation done.. then i felt normal again.. well worth it to get that feeling of unrest off me! also i guess it helps humble u and help you realize the gravity of your actions i also started thinking about getting rebaptized.. i didn't do it yet but i want to .. so i feel like a lot of february was like.. a time for me to kinda start making strides in a better direction.. i started thinking more about trying to achieve higher levels of righteousness and things.. and i'm still not where i want to be at all, but these things were in my head in february a lot so that's what the month felt like to me overall.. even though i can't exactly say i lived up to everything i can't say i stayed away from women in february.. i had that date.. i also started talking to girls a little more but honestly i want to cut it back again i just don't really think i have a heart for women right now i kinda feel like it would take a lot to impress me right now as far as my responsibilities.. i did my thing this month however i still want to improve overall feb was pretty coo
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