i think i've overestimated my dating market value.. not recently, i mean back when i was still dating
this is an interesting thing i was thinking about
ok so in looking at things women want i realize i am still fairly far off from a comfortable mark
one of the main things (probably #1 considering how women truly operate) i am missing is being in shape
i am not in shape at all and i feel like this is something that cannot be overlooked.. i just have to work on it until i get back to a good place
another thing i realized was a year ago i had no furniture
i personally didn't really take note of the fact that i had no furniture.. it didn't bother me personally because i was just doing what i needed to do and figuring it would come
however now that i actually have furniture, i can see how absurd i may have seemed to anyone who came to my house when i had nothing
another thing i feel that i didn't have about a year ago was goals/vision
i was working a lame job and i didn't really have a plan in place for what was coming next
now i feel like i have plans and goals and things and i can see how they help me in my day to day life
the bible says where there is no vision, the people perish.. and i am not sure if i am using that in the correct context here.. but i feel like goals and visions give you purpose and help u to move to a destination.. but if u don't have them then u kinda go nowhere
so now that i have personal goals and things- i look back to when i was dating and i can see this was another area i was lacking in (btw i will likely share my goals and plans in future entries)
and what's weird is i kinda wonder if it took me ditching dating to come to this higher way of living.. because it really feels like a trade off
like the more i've let go of women, the more i've been able to concern myself with my own issues
so i look back to about a year ago and i feel like i was overestimating my value with women.. this was likely a large part of my frustration
btw.. out of the three things i listed.. i'd say #1 and #3 affect a man's confidence as well
so in checking both of those 'off the list' over time, i imagine i would also be checking off the everpresent 'confidence' box as well... at least in part if not fully
i want to sound off on this
i don't follow politics so i could be wrong so let me explain what i am seeing
ok, i heard someone say that trump said he is going to crack down on illegal immigration.. he apparently said he was going to build a wall and force mexicans to build it.. ok the forcing mexicans to build it part was bad
however i am not against stopping illegal immigration .. i feel that our country must have a selective process in order to sustain some kind of identity.. we can't just let people come in and out without putting them through some kind of channel so we can properly document them and tell them something about our country
i am not against immigration, i am against illegal immigration.. its like.. u can't take a new plant or animal to a diff country because they can throw things off balance.. same in this situation.. there must be a funnel, you can't just tell anyone they can come in and out with no boundaries
ok so onto my point.. i am not against mexicans or anything- its just why are they upset at donald trump for wanting to crack down on illegal immigration? lol like.. am i wrong in assuming that's what they're upset about?
why are people in mexico even worried about our election process?
see this is my point- if their only hope in life is to come to the U.S. then they need to look around at their conditions and revolt against THEIR government, not ours
why are u mad at us? if your living conditions suck and u can't make an honest living in your country then you should be mad at the powers that be in YOUR COUNTRY.. like do u see us in the U.S. burning images of mexican authorities?
trust me, everyone in mexico is not poor- i guarantee there are some people who are FILTHY rich out there.. and all the poor mexicans should be setting their sights on them.. because the wealth appears to be only going to the 1% out there
in the states u can still at least get by even though the middle class seems to be waning- but in mexico the disparity between rich and poor seems too large to be just in nature
so i feel they should set their sights on their own situation.. i could be wrong but i feel there is a lot of corruption in mexico
when u are upset at another country because they are threatening to crack down on illegal immigration, you have a problem with YOUR country- not anyone else's
peeps, feel free to let me know if i am oversimplifying this
i don't watch tv or follow politics so maybe i am missing some pieces as to why they are angry.. if there's something else that i'm missing then maybe they are justified.. but if its only the immigration crackdown then i can't cosign that
btw i am not standing up for donald trump or anything- i'm just talking about the mexicans
this is so ridiculous
i don't even get how this can be legal at all
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its a story of the most significant day in his life
i'd post it here but its vevo so i can't embed it
what was your most significant day up to this point?
did you succeed or fail?
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whats one of the weirdest things that happened to u on the phone?
one weird thing that happened to me was one day i was talking to this girl on the phone and she said a guy texted her and said he wanted her faith and she didn't understand what that meant
i was like "what? he wants what?"
i kept saying "what?" until she finally screen shotted the text and sent it to me
so i got it and i read it and the guy said "i want your face" so i realized i was hearing her incorrectly on the phone
she obviously didn't know slang so i told her he was saying he wants head from her
this was very awkward because then she was trying to act like she hadn't done that with him and i was sitting there like wow, i'm legit talking to a jumpoff
also, the way she sent the text i could tell she was trying to hide everything that was said leading up to that
it was just messed up
but i think about things like this and i realize a lot of women are one way with riff raff and one way with me
i can just tell.. because one time for example, a girl sent me a picture of herself that was a little more risque than usual and something in my heart told me yes, she sent it to me, but it wasn't originally meant for me
but what's crazy is sometimes i think women are more jealous of me than they are of riff raff.. like for example one time i told a girl i hugged another girl and she was like "i gotta go" and didn't talk to me again for like weeks
or one time i told a girl that some chick was trying to dance on me in the parking lot, and she legit went off on me
i guess women feel like the bad boys are for everyone but they feel a sense of ownership over the guys like me .. they want guys like me on standby cuz they know the bad boys aren't going to be there after they have their fun
someone on a website i was on asked an interesting question recently
they said "are square guys coming in style?" they asked this in reference to ciara and russell wilson
i'd say square guys are always in style for women who have made mistakes.. they want to rectify their triflin' behavior somehow
but usually square dudes don't want those types of women
but outside of that- i think the question was more along the lines of... will women start to want a square dude AS HER FIRST CHOICE after seeing the ciara and russell wilson thing
what do u peeps think?
i think it could happen.. especially if they ended up with a tv show or something
then women could see- oh, being with a good dude isn't lame or boring.. it's actually cool
will women shift from nicki minaj's "i let him hit it cuz he slang cocaine" or destiny's child's "i need a souljah" to "i want a square dude who will love me" ??
i don't think it'll just shift like a finger snap, but some women could see this and change their desire from the thug to the guy who wants an honorable relationship
women are very much affected by media so it might happen.. even if its just a few women, it could definitely happen
i am not happy about this or anything- i honestly don't care but i think its interesting and worth some speculation
i am still happy to not be dating
one of the worst things about dating the scum we men call women was the phone games they played
they should've never given women cell phones, because all they do is find ways to play with your mind on them
i listen to women whether it be on youtube or in real life or wherever and i have noticed they hold us men to a much higher standard than they hold themselves when it comes to phone etiquette
many times i've heard women say they ignored a guy's phone call yet when he ignores theirs, they get upset
like yesterday i was watching a youtube video of a girl who was talking about her breakup
i kid you not she legit said this
she said her guy texted her and said he was in the hospital and she didn't text him back
and she said "i know that might seem weird but i just didn't feel like texting him back" .. like that was her justification "i just didn't feel like it"
THAT WAS HER JUSTIFICATION!!!!!!
so then her guy didn't answer her text later and she saw him at a club and she physically assaulted him because she was like "how dare u ignore me then i see you at a club" type of thing
but when i was dating i dealt with so much of this crap that i just no longer give a crap about women at all
they can go out and go to clubs and bang all the ex-cons they want- i no longer have a caring heart toward women.. they can live their stupid whorish life of debauchery filled with std's and heartbreak.. i no longer care at all.. my default emotion toward women is usually one of hatred lol
when i say hatred i don't really mean that- i would never go out of my way to hurt anyone.. lets just put it like this.. i used to think highly of women in general.. however now i hold women in general in low regards
one of the worst things women would do was text me something, then i say something back, and they disappear
what is the point of that? why do they do that?
this is why i say women are petty.. why bug me just to ignore me?
and another thing i hate that they do is how whenever u call them on something they act like you're crazy or controlling or something
u text them like: "hey where'd u go?" no response
"hey text me back" no response
"babe what are u doing?" no response
then you say: "damn i'm tired of your bs why the hell dont u ever respond?" then she will finally respond.. AND SHE WILL BE MEAN TO YOU as if she was actually busy and not just sitting there silently reading your texts for the past 4 hours
they always try to act like "you can't control me this is my phone" or "who do u think u are?" or "i don't have to respond"
ok well what if i didn't respond? how about i take u to dinner and when the check comes i decide not to respond? how about when your tire is busted on the freeway i decide not to respond? EVEN IF I JUST DONT RESPOND TO A TEXT its a problem
i got tired of a girl not responding to my texts IN 24 HOURS so i finally said screw it and didn't respond to her next text.. then i got a text later like "are you ok?" YES SKANK, I AM OK- THE SAME WAY YOU ARE EVERY TIME YOU IGNORE ME
women are stupid because they legit think they only test men, but we test women too.. women usually fail all the tests but they never realize it
like guys are looking at women and trying to see if they are the type of woman to play games.. and 9 times out of 10, she is.. so then the guy puts her in a category as not wife material.. then the girl just gets passed around from guy to guy until she learns how to be loyal or show some type of respect
women are quick to say "don't ignore me that's disrespectful" but they ignore men constantly like its their main reflex for any problem or issue
the other day a girl told me she got a text message from a guy and she said she ignored it for like 2 hours... she kept talking but i was sitting there still thinking about how she ignored him like that.. i mean there was no reason- she just felt like he deserved to have to wait.. like women are doing these things as manipulative tactics.. instead of just being honest and real and straight up- they play these retarded games
i am just glad i no longer have to deal with those issues.. i don't like being ignored.. i don't like all the stupid games.. and its just great to be free of all that
its good to know i am allowing women to go out and dig their own graves
i no longer care to stand in the gap for them
and its just good to know i no longer have to deal with their confusing and disrespectful phone etiquette ever again