my goals this year have pretty much been accomplished
my goals were to finish the master's degree program and get in shape while i'm not really in shape, and i wanted to be further along, i can't really complain because i have been going to the gym.. it's not like i've just been letting my membership collect dust like i have in the past 2014 was amazing 2015 was alright 2016 was phenomenal 2017 has been good here are the cons of 2017 -dealing with an awful relationship that sucked the life out of me in various ways -having that awful relationship end abruptly with no closure whatsoever -not getting any new clothes (for various reasons... but this has to change soon because this has become a bigger problem over time) here are the pros of 2017 -got a ps4 pro and ps plus (horizon zero dawn was my fave game of the year) -got a master's degree -finished furnishing my apartment things i've learned in 2017 note: i've known pretty much all of this already but it has become solidified this year -women in general take kindness, patience, and caring for weakness -women in general abuse all forms of "power" they receive and they think men are wired the same way which is why they always think men are trying to oppress them... but men aren't wired that way.. if you give a man power he uplifts and blesses his family.. if you give a woman power she uses it to fight the man -if God doesn't set up your relationship then your relationship will fail so the main thing you need to seek is God's will concerning relationships -you need to pray more for God's will in your life (because it is perfect) than you pray for things you desire.. and pray that His will overrides your desire.. (i prayed for a woman and i received my last relationship, however was it God's will? ..i think that's where i went wrong, putting my desire over God's will) -there are people who are just not good people.. there are people who live and project a lie... because i have been sheltered i haven't really been much exposed to this sort of thing but looking back- my ex was not a good person and was not genuine or honest or sincere or anything.. she was a waste of time sent to me to break me down, and make me bitter.. the bible tells us to remain unstained by the world and i honestly believe she was sent to stain me, but it didn't work because God had mercy on me and because He gave me a great group of people who pray for me -many if not most awful people have great looks and/or charisma.. which goes against our childhood disney programming where nice people are good looking and mean people are unattractive -personality disorders and wicked spirits are like the same thing just one is described in a scientific way and the other is described in a spiritual way.. both sides can help to give you a full understanding of what you're dealing with and why -people judge you based on your appearance.. again this is something i've already known but this idea has been more solidified this year.. if you are a genuine type of person you may be the type to sort of have a desire to rebel against this notion to some extent, however if you can use peoples' perception to your advantage why not.. if perception is everything then what does that make image? and of course i don't fully subscribe to that but i guess we are forced to live among people who do -when you were in school paying for someone to do your work was called cheating.. when you're an adult its just capitalism.. it can be good to find ways to pass the burden of a task to someone else (which brings me to another one) -we are in many ways taught in our society how to work for the benefit of others however there are ways to work for your own benefit.. the more you mentally disconnect from the matrix, the crazier you look and the better off you are -peace is paramount as a guide for the direction of your life -everything is essentially easy if you take self (and how 'self' doesn't want to do it) out of the equation my favorite music this year was shoegaze.. i didn't get deep into any music but i definitely listened to shoegaze more than anything whirr, hideous towns, miniatures, daysleepers, etc i love the feeling i get from shoegaze.. it feels so "right" to me my favorite show this year was probably curb your enthusiasm.. i remember when i was dealing with my ex g/f i just started to feel like i was losing myself or something.. its hard to explain.. like i just didn't feel comfortable being myself anymore and i wanted to feel comfortable again, so i bought a curb your enthusiasm dvd because i knew that show would remind me of myself and i would have some moments to sit back and laugh and relax i really like that show i see a lot of myself in larry david .. i love his rants about mundane things and his awkward run-ins.. and his facial expressions crack me up best and worst days this year: i feel like the best day was graduation day.. it was amazing, we ate at monell's and it was just a fun day all around.. peeps were congratulating me and i was glad to be done with school and happy that my parents were proud of me the worst day was probably when my ex said "don't call me, don't text me, don't email me" etc.. that really hurt.. not being with her as a couple was fine cuz all we did was argue and i didn't think she was trustworthy.. but saying u never want to talk to me again just seemed overboard to me.. it was like a confirmation that everything i did was for nothing.. every date, every gift, every compliment, every prayer, every call, everything.. every last bit of it was for nothing my goals for 2018 are as follows: -get some new clothes -get a higher paying job -get a house -finish getting in shape ("finish" meaning get to ideal build and stay there) -i want to make sure to stay after at church instead of leave all the time -i also want to learn how to make money outside of the cubicle thing anyway.. 2017 has been good.. God has kept me another year.. He has kept me safe and He has kept me afloat financially.. also He has kept my family and friends which i'm very grateful for that's pretty much it for now peeps.. stay fly and i'll holla
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