i've been gone for over a week.. i'm not sure why.. i guess my head has been in other places but i'll try to do an update +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i've been talking to a girl named questa.. she is cool so far.. here are the things that are good about her 1. big boobs 2. she actually texts me and checks up on me 3. she believes in God and is at least trying to have some righteousness 4. she has a measure of logic- which makes her easier to talk to than many women i typically have absolutely zero luck with women so if you never hear about her again then you know what happened btw.. if she stays around- i will post a picture of her.. i'd do it right now but man.. honestly women come and go so much that i won't bother until i know she means something to me +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i have been keeping up with no man's sky coverage i always felt like this game would be terrible and it is i also always disliked sean murray.. when i first saw him i didn't like how he acted as if he was a new developer accomplishing his dream i am the type who prefers a dev to look and appear accomplished, professional, unmoved, and confident.. because i feel like those are the signs of a dev that really has something on their hands.. and a dev who is more like a veteran than an intern compare the demeanor of sean murray to the demeanor of a rep from naughty dog.. night and day so i've always disliked no man's sky because i always thought the game looked like crap and i felt that sean murray looked like a hack turns out i was right ++++++++++++++++++++++++ ciarra invited me to stay with her in texas for a few days believe it or not, this actually threw me into an odd state i was like really in a state of confusion and bewilderment for about a week after she said that i was realizing how i should be happy about it but it just felt weird the only thing i can really say is this: i have been "chasing" this girl for a very long time.. it has all been out of my own admiration of her.. none of it has been from her giving me any type of positive reinforcement i think this whole time (about 2 years) i've fallen into a sort of groove with her where i have grown to expect her to shun all my advances.. so i never feel bad because i feel like my "hope" is totally unfounded.. like i never expected her to actually open up to me so to receive an invitation to stay at her house for a few days- i recognize that as like a big deal and i guess psychologically it amounts to the first time i can actually be legitimately rejected by her so believe it or not- hearing her invite me out ended up being a little scary as opposed to exciting i've been flirting with her non stop and she hasn't budged an inch.. so when she actually "budges" and concedes then its almost like i'm so shocked that i'm immediately thrust into performance anxiety- like "i can't mess up this opportunity!" i never would've expected to be thrown into such an odd state over such a great invitation but it really threw me off and i know whoever is reading this is probably wondering if i'll actually go i will go if the opportunity presents itself.. it turns out that she doesn't move into her place there until the exact same day that i start fall classes.. so its not exactly in the cards right now one thing i have learned from the Lord though is you do what He tells you to do, so if God doesn't open a door- then you probably shouldn't go trying to kick it open.. so i want to wait for the Lord's leading and timing before flying out but if the Lord opens that up for me i definitely want to go.. but i'm not sweatin her.. i admit i like her but i'm not losing myself over her if that makes any sense +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i finally got my streets book in the mail this thing took forever to get here.. i'll try to let u all know how it is he's one of my fave rappers that's for sure +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i counted today and i realized if everything goes well with my classes, then in 9 months i will birth a master's degree prayers are appreciated.. i really want to achieve this i remember having nothing in my 20s and so when my life started to come together i kinda told myself in my heart that i would try to add to what i have and so that is what i am trying to do i had very little in my 20s.. i never had money for things really.. i was never really able to keep a job.. flunked out of school like 3 times.. i'd say 2005 and 2006 were extremely depressing years for me where i was like a nobody with no type of faith or confidence but i believe we can redeem the time.. so that is kinda what i'm trying to do.. sort of trying to accomplish now what i was unable to accomplish back then i sometimes wish i could tell people that they can move forward in life, but i usually feel like people won't understand that i'm speaking to them from the heart and not from rhetoric i've had a lot of missteps in life but i legit got A's in every class last semester.. so my point is you can move forward and distance yourself from your previous shortcomings or fears +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i had to stop taking some of my vitamins recently because i think they were making me extremely..... let's just say i felt like bill cosby i don't know why the labels on some of these things don't say "will make you think about sex 25 hours a day" imagine your libido has levels and they are low, medium, high, and taz-manian devil i was on taz for days and that just wasn't kosher, brah +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i saw this picture on a video today i took a picture of it because it seems so true these days +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i finally bought chairs for my bar area in my apartment i got two of these at first i didn't want to get them due to price but i didn't want to pass them up.. these were another item i got where i found them in the first place i went to look +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i listen to music in my car now on usb thumbdrives i have all the music i made on one thumbdrive and music from other artists on another one if anyone reading this wants a thumbdrive with all my music on it then hit me up.. also- if anyone wants to hook me up with music, let me know.. my car lets me choose by folder or by artist.. and i have like three 32gb thumb drives so i'm pretty much open to anything because none of them are even close to being full personally, i think the next batch of music i want to put on my drive is loose ends.. i always really liked their music ever since the first time i saw their hangin on a string video in 05 oh and let me say this.. i got that q-unit album on my drive.. that's the queen and g-unit mashup... man that thing still bangs lol its still available free online for anyone interested.. i'd say its one of the best mashup albums i've heard.. speaking of which.. wugazi (wu-tang and fugazi) was pretty cool too.. oh yeah, and this particular mashup song never stops being legit 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alright.. i don't really feel like thinking of more things to say i'm out hopefully that was a legit update
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