hey peeps. i just realized i've been gone for almost a whole month!!!!!!
first off.. THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS CONCERNING SCHOOL!!!
by the grace of God I passed all my classes.. the research methods class was SO crazy.. it got to a point where i literally was like "either i will stop reading her feedback or i'm quitting the class"
so i stopped reading her feedback because her feedback was nothing but her telling me to redo assignments.. so i just stopped reading it and just turned things in once and left it alone.. once i did that then i regained some semblance of sanity
so yeah i passed all my classes.. that's 2 semesters down, hopefully just one more to go
so hopefully in may i will have a masters degree in communications
this year has been amazing because everything i set out to do- the Lord allowed me to do it.. on the right side of the site was my motto for the year "i just made varsity, its good business" what that meant to me was basically this:
saying "i made varsity" was me saying i wanted to increase my value or move "up" .. and i was able to do that with school
saying "its good business" was me saying i wanted to stay focused on productive things this year and not get bogged down with drama or depression or whatever was going on
the Lord definitely heard my prayers and allowed me to make these goals a reality this year
i took on my job's steep learning curve, i did two semesters of school.. 4 classes each semester.. i dated girls and didn't let them ruin my life.. i was able to just stay focused.. i also bought a huge tv, bought a dresser, u know.. i just did things that were productive this yr.. i didn't want another 2015 because that year i dealt with a lot of rejection and i realized if i didn't do something new then i wouldn't feel a sense of strength or progress
in 2014 i made a lot of progress in my life and i wanted another 2014 basically.. and the Lord allowed that to happen
i dated a nice girl this yr but ultimately i had to let that go because deep down i didn't think she was mine.. then later in the yr i met questa and we have been doing good.. questa has given me a lot of problems but something about her feels more "right" than other women i've come across
that is the main thing i've noticed with women.. there is an intangible thing.. like someone might cause u headaches but if they seem right then they seem right.. if someone is a totally amazing and ur always at peace with them, thats cool too.. but if it seems wrong or you keep getting a feeling like "this is not my girl, its someone else's" then u just have to let it go
with questa, i have felt like she is mine.. she has been really hard to deal with.. harder than any girl i've ever been with before.. but she seems right for me.. and she has shown a level of commitment that is rare
she drove 3.5 hours to see me a number of times.. she is so pretty also.. i am very thankful to have her.. like i said she has given me problems like bonkers but i feel like underneath all the craziness.. there is something very "right" between us
i met her after fasting.. and i don't say that to make myself look holy.. i say it to encourage all of u and let you know that the Lord can bless you with someone if you ask him.. i was watching a youtube video from tony evans on fasting for a spouse.. then i fasted.. then i met questa like 2 days after i finished or something like that
so i encourage anyone else to peep that video, you can youtube it and then ask the Lord to help you out.. cuz i have had awful awful luck with women until now
anyway i have to go but u all take it easy hopefully i'll be back soon, i think i have more to say.. peaCe