hey peeps. i just realized i've been gone for almost a whole month!!!!!!
first off.. THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS CONCERNING SCHOOL!!!
by the grace of God I passed all my classes.. the research methods class was SO crazy.. it got to a point where i literally was like "either i will stop reading her feedback or i'm quitting the class"
so i stopped reading her feedback because her feedback was nothing but her telling me to redo assignments.. so i just stopped reading it and just turned things in once and left it alone.. once i did that then i regained some semblance of sanity
so yeah i passed all my classes.. that's 2 semesters down, hopefully just one more to go
so hopefully in may i will have a masters degree in communications
this year has been amazing because everything i set out to do- the Lord allowed me to do it.. on the right side of the site was my motto for the year "i just made varsity, its good business" what that meant to me was basically this:
saying "i made varsity" was me saying i wanted to increase my value or move "up" .. and i was able to do that with school
saying "its good business" was me saying i wanted to stay focused on productive things this year and not get bogged down with drama or depression or whatever was going on
the Lord definitely heard my prayers and allowed me to make these goals a reality this year
i took on my job's steep learning curve, i did two semesters of school.. 4 classes each semester.. i dated girls and didn't let them ruin my life.. i was able to just stay focused.. i also bought a huge tv, bought a dresser, u know.. i just did things that were productive this yr.. i didn't want another 2015 because that year i dealt with a lot of rejection and i realized if i didn't do something new then i wouldn't feel a sense of strength or progress
in 2014 i made a lot of progress in my life and i wanted another 2014 basically.. and the Lord allowed that to happen
i dated a nice girl this yr but ultimately i had to let that go because deep down i didn't think she was mine.. then later in the yr i met questa and we have been doing good.. questa has given me a lot of problems but something about her feels more "right" than other women i've come across
that is the main thing i've noticed with women.. there is an intangible thing.. like someone might cause u headaches but if they seem right then they seem right.. if someone is a totally amazing and ur always at peace with them, thats cool too.. but if it seems wrong or you keep getting a feeling like "this is not my girl, its someone else's" then u just have to let it go
with questa, i have felt like she is mine.. she has been really hard to deal with.. harder than any girl i've ever been with before.. but she seems right for me.. and she has shown a level of commitment that is rare
she drove 3.5 hours to see me a number of times.. she is so pretty also.. i am very thankful to have her.. like i said she has given me problems like bonkers but i feel like underneath all the craziness.. there is something very "right" between us
i met her after fasting.. and i don't say that to make myself look holy.. i say it to encourage all of u and let you know that the Lord can bless you with someone if you ask him.. i was watching a youtube video from tony evans on fasting for a spouse.. then i fasted.. then i met questa like 2 days after i finished or something like that
so i encourage anyone else to peep that video, you can youtube it and then ask the Lord to help you out.. cuz i have had awful awful luck with women until now
anyway i have to go but u all take it easy hopefully i'll be back soon, i think i have more to say.. peaCe
one thing i want to say is that i believe what i'm about to talk about is an extremely common misconception we have in society... and i've probably said it before but this is just something i want to bring out to the forefront
if anyone has a comment on this then leave it because i want to see what other people think of this
where does the bible say that men are to dominate women?
the bible says women are to submit to men
what i mean by this is- i don't like how people try to give men the woman's job and responsibility
like if a woman in a relationship is out of line, they say to the man "you have to show her you're the man" or "you have to take your rightful place"
again.. where is my commandment to dominate a woman or force her into compliance?
where is it? if anyone knows where this is please seriously.. no joke, show me this scripture
i resent people blaming men for women's indiscretion.. i resent people saying "your wife is out of line because of you as a man"
THE COMMANDMENT IS FOR HUSBANDS TO LOVE THEIR WIVES AND FOR WIVES TO SUBMIT TO THEIR HUSBANDS
IT IS THE WOMAN'S JOB TO SUBMIT, SO HOW/WHY ARE YOU BLAMING THE HUSBAND FOR THE WOMAN'S LACK OF SUBMISSION!!!?
ITS HER JOB!!!!!
if a man didn't love his wife, would you blame his wife? or would you go to the man and say "hey brother, you are not right for treating your wife this way"
my job as a man is to act in a respectable way, protect, provide and to love my wife
a woman's job is to be loveable and to honor/respect, and submit to her husband
i can't get mad at a woman if her husband is not providing or protecting now can i?
in the same way, when we see women who are not in proper submission, let's recognize that it's not the man's fault or drawback.. it is the woman's
it is HER job and SHE is choosing not to do it
it doesn't say "husbands, dominate your wives" it says "wives, submit to your husbands"
if a woman doesn't do this then it is her folly.. the man could legit be doing everything right in this scenario
i am just tired of people blaming women's lack of reverence/respect/submission on men
if a woman has a good man and chooses not to respect him.. don't rebuke or admonish the man, turn to the woman
i just feel overall that women are to submit, men are to love
just as women cannot FORCE men to love them
men cannot FORCE women to submit
what up peeps
as you can tell i haven't been on here lately
here's what's been goin on
1. work has been SUPER hectic.. like as in so hectic that its depressing.. the workload is so much that i feel like some type of idiot.. like i feel incompetent
let me put it like this.. if you worked at mcdonalds u could prob make burgers and be cool.. but imagine if all the other employees left and it was the lunch rush and you're the only one making food
you can do ur job but in that moment- you're overwhelmed... i hope the Lord has mercy on me because it's been rough
2. school has been like
let me just say this.. it hasn't physically rained here in a long time.. like its weird how long we have gone without rain and i feel like i'm the only person who notices this because i like rain.. everyone else likes sunshine.. but it hasn't rained in weeks
that odd feeling of it not raining is sort of how school feels to me right now because i have a 16wk class.. i don't like this class at all and i want it to just end
what i like about grad school is the classes have mostly been 8wks which is PHENOMENAL, you can get through 8wks of anything.. but 16wks of crap is a diff story
in the same way that it currently feels like a prolonged period of time with no rain.. i also feel like school is in a prolonged period of crap with this long class
its hard to explain.. it feels like there should be a break or an intermission but it just won't come
3. questa is my girlfriend.. i don't know if i told u guys we made it official.. i first spoke to her 8.14.16 then we made it official 10.9.16
i am very happy with her she is great.. we have ups and downs but i would not trade her for anything
one thing i love about her is her breath.. its like fresh spring water or something.. i told her i just want her to breathe all over me.. i just can't believe her breath it is amazing
one interesting thing... one day she had an attitude with me but i looked at her and i saw through it.. i can't really explain this- its just i saw through her attitude one day and saw the person inside
that was a big thing for me, it changed my view
a lot of women act standoffish for whatever reason but if u are able to somehow see through that and see the person inside you can develop more patience and a greater appreciation for her
everything i just listed is probably a reason why i haven't been on here as much
anyway.. i'm looking forward to black friday and cyber monday i hope i can get a ps4 pro
i also hope i can eventually free up more time so i can actually play games
oh and another thing, i want to get a new imac in 2017 if i can
my imac has served me well but feb 2017 will make it 7yrs old.. so i could use the updates on the newer ones
i don't have much to say right now.. just coming through to say hi
ok peeps stay up
i know some of u may wonder why i post stuff like this but its legit important to me and i think we need to get back to basics in society.. wives submit, men love, children obedient, just basics..... women need to honor men again- its only going to help them to get and keep relationships.. the disrespect women have for men today is what keeps them getting banged and left over and over
i feel like my website is becoming a distant stranger
but here's what i've been up to
going to work, eating french toast, doing homework, listening to 90s alt rock
i finished PR class recently
my birthday isn't until 10-31.. but questa already told me what she got for me.. she said she bought me a light-up computer keyboard
i feel like a geek cuz i'm legit excited about that
i haven't been playing any games or watching any dvds
ok i gotta run again peeps.. i haven't wanted to speak much lately but i have a lot of old entries in my drafts folders so i may start unleashing some of those.. someone remind me to do that
i know i haven't been on here.. i haven't been into it as much lately with how busy i've been
also i'm with questa now.. as in she is my g/f
i am very thankful to have her in my life
ok i'm out for now peeps
this is pretty profound.. or maybe not profound but like..... necessary in this culture
at first i couldn't see where he was going but i feel where he's coming from
as men are we going to run game or are we looking for wives?
the main thing that made me post this was the fact that i feel like there are prob no other videos like this out there.. his whole perspective seems rare in this current climate