one thing i don't understand is when people say they aren't racist but they don't date a certain race
that doesn't make any sense to me any race has millions of people.. short, tall, fat, skinny, people with diff accents, people who are rich and poor.. people of high and low integrity, etc etc etc i don't get how a person says "yeah that whole race of people doesn't fit my criteria" it just doesn't make any sense to me so like before you even get to know a person, you have already said in your head "this is not a person i could ever date, or spend time with alone, or even talk to on the phone" an entire race of people.. nevermind they may be the same religion as you and may be physically fit, may make a good living, may treat you well you don't even care about those things, you say "you don't fit because you do not fit into a man-made category" i don't know what to say to people who are like this.. its just weird to me "i am not racist but i am not nor have i ever been attracted to anyone out of one specific entire race" how the hell is that not racist? if i said "i'm attracted to any people except asians" does that not sound racist? how can you not like anyone out of like 2 billion people? and my other problem is how people say that, but they don't acknowledge the fact that no 'race' is one thing anyway.. like i asked some white guy if he thought a particular girl was pretty.. he said "i'm not racist but i don't date black women" ..and i was like "....but she's half white anyway" (which she really was/is) and he didn't say anything and i'm thinking to myself, does this clown even understand that no one is one thing? lmao.. we are all made of sand you f*cking idiot.. literally, the bible says we are made of sand and it makes sense considering our skin tones are all the diff colors of sand so u really think your sand is better than someone else's? i am just so tired of people thinking with this clique-ish mentality.. we aren't separated by looks, we are separated by beliefs the fact that any race can properly procreate with any other race is proof that it is something God deems as ok so why are so many people stuck on stupid?
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do u ever get so broke to where you just start buying things?
sometimes i feel like that i get so tired of not having any extra money sometimes that i am just like "ok where's my credit card, i'm about to buy everything i want" lol splurging to me is very small not as small as some people- food is splurging to some people splurging to me is like buying a video game or something btw, i can't believe metal gear 5 is coming out in like 2 weeks smh.. if only i could get $400 to buy a ps4 between now and september 1st i really want more money.. i have restarted my job search and everything i am super thankful for the things i have but i realize i am at a point where i have little to no "extra" like i've been living in my apartment for almost 11months and i still have no couch lol i think about money a lot lately i am making less money than i did a year ago because my job keeps changing the bonus structure.. but they've changed it to where i am no longer receiving bonuses i feel like i am good with money though.. even tho i am broke i feel like i make good decisions with the money.. not as good as some people, but pretty good what i mean is, if i am broke, chances are i have no outstanding bills.. another thing i tend to do is i buy gas cards.. so even if i only have $2 in my wallet, chances are i have a gas card and so that's almost never an issue i also generally try to pay bills IMMEDIATELY it just helps me rest easy, so being broke doesn't bother me as much as people may think one thing that has been crazy is somehow i have not been able to have "extra" really at all for a while.. like even when i got my taxes this year, i ended up having to pay for my mattress and some car repairs i remember when i was little i always thought having bills would be better than having homework, and i actually still agree with that homework was stupid nonsense, it was just crap to waste your time and zap your energy.. there was no purpose i don't remember any of that crap we learned.. it was all racist and atheist anyway so i don't value or believe any of it.. i mean so many cultures contributed so many things to the world but in our schools you would think white european people discovered air and graciously gave it out to all other races of dirty peasants and the math was stupid too because we have calculators.. why did we have to do math? we used to always say "i'm never going to need this" and we were right i honestly feel like being an adult in a lot of ways is better than being a kid, especially if you can get a lot of money somehow.. and i'm not there yet- but still.. the oppression of school was just terrible i still see nonsense as an adult, but a lot of things make more sense as an adult.. like when i was a kid we had to say the pledge of allegiance.. i always hated that... well guess what? as an adult i renounced it and i will never say that crap again but there are still very stupid things i see as an adult, like the fact that people hire gays and transvestites the problem i have with that is- if i show up to an interview wearing jeans, i will be seen as disrespectful and thrown out but if a man shows up to an interview wearing high heels he will be hired.. to me that's dumb as hell and it also makes me never want to have kids because can you imagine if a dumbass reprobate tranny was a teacher? then everyday you'd have to wonder if your child is getting banged by a man with tits in the broom closet lol.. whoa i just realized i went WAY off my original subject matter anyway.. i just wanted to get my thoughts out.. i mainly wanted to say i want money.. its not God or anything, but as a 30yr old man, focusing on money matters seems to be a decent priority u guys take it easy do u ever think back on crazy things u used to do?
i remember when i was younger me and my friend josh used to do crazy things like ride bikes on the roof of his house i remember one day his mom came home and saw us and was confused as f*ck lol i remember josh used to sometimes call my house collect lol he'd be at the mall and back then it was payphones instead of cell phones so he'd call us to pick him up or something its funny now looking back because i remember my parents being like "why did josh call us collect? ..why didn't he call his parents instead?" and i'd be thinking something like "stop complaining, damn" lol those were the days brah i understand why a lot of holidays are wrong from a christian standpoint
christmas is basically wrong because of the origins of it, and because no one even knows Jesus birthday, and because its supposedly christian but it is mixed with paganism like with the old celebration of yule etc easter is basically wrong again because they mix what Jesus did with paganism.. they say its about what Jesus did for us, but then they mix it with pagan fertility festivals with eggs and rabbits and things i am the only person who feels this way, but i actually don't really feel halloween is wrong this feeling may change one day but let me explain why i feel this way i feel that all hallow's eve is wrong.. that was the pagan celebration of death or whatever.. however i feel that halloween is NOT two key things 1. it is not all hallow's eve 2. it is not masquerading as a christian thing so from my opinion, how is it wrong? its not mixing the holy with the profane, and it is not all hallow's eve.. it is halloween.. which are two totally diff things i am not saying i am right in saying its not wrong, but from my perspective, these two aspects make it have the same weight as a birthday a birthday is not christian and it is also not pagan or profane (i don't think) i know i am the only person who sees wrong in christmas and easter but not in halloween, but that is just my thought on it don't take my word as law, this is just my perception i've been thinking about the last of us lately so i want to talk about it a little real quick
they did a good job on ellie, but she was a little overrated imo.. reviewers just love her so much never in my life have i wanted to play a game featuring a wise-cracking lesbian... YUCK the best character was henry.. the second best was joel's brother.. joel's brother was better than joel in every way lol.. it was kinda sad.. i mean joel's brother had electricity and employees! lol the third best character was joel.. i remember when i started the game and i realized joel was southern.. i was like oh crap a southern character? where is the receipt? but i ended up liking him.. he's just a cool guy for the most part see, ellie was not in my top 3 characters.. she was overrated imo.. she was decent, but just not this phenomenal mind-blowing character everyone says she is.. the title of best and most well developed female character in a video game has to go to jody from beyond two souls.. hands down point blank period, and by a LARGE margin i think the worst video game character ever is nathan drake.. he has one emotion.. smugness i mean its just unfunny quip after unfunny quip until the end one thing i hate in characters also is the whole "i'm so brave that i'm stupid" thing the "i know i have no weapons and he has a flamethrower, but i'm still going to slap him across the face" type thing "i know that i'm 400ft off the ground with no parachute, but i'm still going to jump" one other thing i think about is- i wish the black characters weren't so white-washed in some of these games sometimes i want to hear the black characters say something a real black person would say like: "this place is ratchet!" or "f*ck these b*tch ass clickers!" or "what's good brah" i wouldn't want it to be a complete stereotype- like a guy in a cadillac with a bucket of fried chicken who says 'ngga' after every sentence but just someone who isn't totally white-washed i was at work not too long ago and i was talking to some guy about music and he said his fave rappers are eminem and plies.. i was thinking... "plies?... really?" i was like wow i can't believe someone actually likes plies like that, so when i got home i peeped a few of his songs the first two songs i peeped were phenomenal so i was madd surprised (they were both songs about women) i peeped a few more songs and videos here and there since then, and i even downloaded some of his stuff on datpiff... aye plies is ill.. his content is real.. its not all about rhymes and being lyrical.. he just speaks real content i never thought i'd like plies but... homie is nice i realize i shouldn't have prejudged him i did this for extra credit in a class back in 2012
i ran across it today on my computer and decided to share it i think it was a good little story +++++++++++++++ James Smedley Case Study Extra Credit 08-05-2012 Gary’s In Trouble Gary worked for IVG (internet video gaming). He wrote reviews with great integrity and truth. He found himself in an odd situation one day when IVG’s marketing team called him into their office. “Hey Gary, glad to see you, BloodFun 2 is looking like a great game isn’t it?” “Yeah it looks awesome! BloodFun 1 was incredible, has it come into the offices yet?” “No, we just wanted to get your opinion on it.” “Yeah the game looks incredible- looks like it’s shaping up to be far better than BloodFun 1.” “Great, alright well we’re not going to hold you up we just wanted to pick your brain a bit.” Gary wondered what that was about. He felt like something odd was happening but couldn’t exactly put his finger on it. The next day he asked a few of his co-workers if they were getting weird vibes from the marketing department as well. They all said no. No one else was asked about BloodFun 2 at all. The next week came and it was time for Gary to review BloodFun 2. The company made the decision to give Gary the game to review even though he was swamped with other reviews already. “Why don’t you guys get Allen to review it? He’s nearly done with his Wii Dance Fit review.” “We think you’ll do the best job on this one.” Gary got that eerie feeling again. After playing through the game, Gary typed his review and published it live on the IVG webpage. He went home and went to sleep. The next day he arrived at work and was immediately called into the marketing office. “Gary you finished your review extremely fast we really would’ve liked to see it before you published it.” “What, why?” “We thought you loved the first BloodFun game.” “I did.” “Well what was so wrong with BloodFun 2?” “EVERYTHING! I don’t even know how they did it but the graphics are worse than the first one, the music went from licensed songs to ambient tinkering, the plot is nonexist-“ “That’s enough, look Gary.. here’s the deal, we gave you the game to review because we thought out of all the reviewers here that you’d like the game the most. We needed to review this an 8.5 out of 10 or above to keep the game company’s ad revenue.” “Oh so you’re all upset at me for being honest in my reviews?” “Gary, you trashed this game.. do you even go on the IVG website? Haven’t you seen the BloodFun 2 ads plastered all over the site!?” “Yes I go to the site, but-“ “Oh so you did know then. This game company is basically keeping the lights on for us and now after you rated their game a 4.5 out of 10 they are removing their ads not only for that game but for the next three as well!” “Well what do you want me to do?” “Nothing Gary, you’re fired.” 1. What should Gary do in this situation? 2. Who is to blame for this? 3. How can the company avoid this type of dilemma in the future? 4. Should the company expand communication with the video game companies, or with its employees on the review staff? Why? 5. Does marketing have a right to be angry with Gary? Why? 6. Is the organization operating with integrity right now? Why or why not? 7. If IVG develops a culture of doing reviews to solidify monetary gain from game companies, what might the long term organizational effects be? yesterday a girl text me and she said she likes the fact that i am a 'moral' type of guy.. and she said she wishes she could be more like me
i don't really take credit for being moral because like.. i'm just not where i want to be as far as being Christ-like and everything but i really appreciated her saying that because it made me feel good and made me want to strive harder to be a good person sometimes i feel like "i could be a good person but what is the point" ...i get discouraged just like everyone else like why should you try if you have no one to influence, or no one to make happy, or no one to make proud, or no one to bless, or whatever its like you could say bad words all day around yourself and it seems like it doesn't matter, but if you have a child or something then you might say to yourself "i now have a reason to speak with a clean tongue" and i know we should strive to be good all the time because of God but sometimes our responsibility to people feels a little more tangible than our responsibility to God (at least to me) so it was good to hear someone sort of encourage me in the area of morality because i get weak, i get confused, i get frustrated, i sometimes flat-out give up but i don't want to give up... i want to be strong 100% of the time the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak so to speak so yeah that really meant a lot to have her say that i think as a man, having some non superficial encouragement from a girl is like huge.. i've gotten compliments on shirts and haircuts and things like that, but having a woman say she admires my character really encourages me this year hasn't been as good as last year
last year honestly felt terrible a lot of times, but i saw so much growth and so many good things happen this year i haven't seen any good things happen... everything has been same old same old.. every single day i admit i'm pretty frustrated about it i want to see some positive change so far this year i haven't been able to really stick to my guns as far as self discipline and things like that i haven't been able to really focus or achieve anything each day seems like a distraction from something important... i wake up and deal with various things that have no real value.. i am just living day to day hand to mouth i am fine to an extent.. but where is the purpose? this is not the type of year i want to have, where i just wake up and go through the motions i have to do better i just wanted to say this real quick
last yr i said i didn't have a song of the yr on second thought, my song of the yr 2014 was "how soon is now?" from the smiths so here's a recap: 2008 - wired all wrong / 15 minutes 2009 - soulja boy / swag-flu georgia anne muldrow / roses 2010 - charles hamilton / cosmic library zone 2011 - melvin burch / don't act like i didn't tell you charles hamilton / breakaway 2012 - kenny loggins / i'm free (heaven helps the man) dave matthews band / when the world ends dave matthews band / pay for what you get 2013 - thomas newman / sex at the loft 2014 - the smiths / how soon is now? band of the yr - curve 2015 - not sure yet |
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