i am not a race based person at all
but i want to talk about a problem i've seen with a lot of black women they will on one hand say that a good black man is hard to find and that decent black women outnumber decent black men 3 to 1 or something like that but they also act as if black men are completely replaceable these two ideas don't really mix.. are decent black men rare and therefore valuable? or are they completely replaceable and therefore 'a dime a dozen' ? make up your mind and this (imo) is part of why i keep seeing pretty black women who are over 30 and single and the other problem is, when you do finally find someone- you don't require marriage.. you just let them bang you for 3 years until you finally break up before anyone says i am hatin on black women... answer this.. am i right or wrong? i can't be the only one seeing these things
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have you ever wondered how much of life is spiritual and how much is natural?
i wonder about this a lot to give an example of what i'm talking about- say you are looking for a job in the natural, you can have a college degree, have nice clothes, be in shape, and have a great resume in the spiritual, you are prayed up and maybe you have fasted, and you have rebuked the enemy from sabotaging your interviews which side is the more important side? i think we all really sort of lean toward the natural side of things because that's what we can see- that is what we are exposed to everyday here on earth but i'm sure a lot of you reading this will attest to the fact that the spiritual side is real also maybe because you hit a hard time in your life at some point, and you prayed and your burdens were lifted so you are a witness to the fact that there are things going on around us.. invisible things.. angels, demons, blessings, and curses i sometimes think about things like.. if you want a girlfriend, it will be easier to get one if you have 6-pack abs.. so the natural element is definitely there but then again.. the spiritual aspect seems to even supersede that because God "orders our steps" and thus controls who we meet and who we don't meet in our every day life anyway.. i'm just thinking outloud its interesting to think about both sides of life and how they affect us on a day to day basis i'm pretty sure i'm going to lose my job soon i'm either going to quit or get fired i am pretty sure this is coming soon i'm not sure what i'm going to do next i have come to the conclusion though that i want an actual job where i do actual work as opposed to a job where my job is to represent a company my current job has become one of those jobs where they want you to "drink the kool-aid" so to speak i don't really like that.. you pay me to work, you don't pay me to smile or suck-up or act like a clone or dress to the 9s with my non-existent wardrobe stipend any job where i have to represent some idiot who is on vacation 6 months a year is just not for me "yeah our company is great.. high level executives make hundreds of thousands and millions while the people who do all the work and deal with crap all day (figurative OR EVEN LITERAL) get paid low hourly wages and are punished for taking days off to go to the doctor or spend time with family." i just can't do it anymore what happened to the days when men were paid for an honest day of work? i am so tired of people telling me i don't sound "happy enough" or whatever.. like what the hell are you talking about? if they only knew the favor they'd be doing me by firing me.. lol.. i just don't want to quit because... basically for me- quitting in my life went from being a habit to being a phobia.. i used to quit everything in my life but these days (and I honestly thank God for this) i feel like quitting is more of a last resort than a first resort.. i'm thankful for the ability to see things through nowadays basically but whatever i don't even care to finish this i'm just venting (this post reminded me of this song by aesop rock called 9 to 5'ers anthem) Fumble outta bed and stumble to the kitchen. Pour myself a cup of ambition. And yawn and stretch, my life is a mess, And if I never make it home today, God bless. i've been hearing a lot of songs and talk lately about guys who like to eat booty i was amazed at this when i first started hearing about it.. like "wait, do people really do that?" but little by little i hear about it more and more.. the first time i heard about it was when lil b did his song called "i'ma eat an ass" in 2012 and i wasn't sure how much of it was a joke and how much was true.. since then there's been a lot more booty eating talk.. charlamagne, trick daddy, jhene aiko, kevin gates, and a bunch more people i even asked a few girls about it and they all are like "yeah i've had it done on me, its actually kinda normal now" i sit there dumbfounded lol well i ran across this video on the current phenomenon consider this my sentiment as well do you remember that part in the Bible where Jesus went up to the fig tree but there was no fruit?
that is what i feel like women are like: you go up to one - she has kids you go up to one - she is a lesbian you go up to one - she is a stripper, video vixen, instagram model you go up to one - she has an attitude you go up to one - she is too "independent" to want you you go up to one - she is divorced twice you go up to one - she has an std you go up to one - she is a know-it-all you go up to one - she has a friend with benefits you go up to one - she is using you to get over a breakup you go up to one - she smokes cigarettes and then you go up to one - she is perfect.............. but she doesn't want you here is something i've been wanting to explore lately
how do you know when a girl is "yours?" when i say "yours" what i mean is- she presents herself to you and you can do with her whatever you wish.. you can use her, you can keep her, you can laugh with her, she is just there for you so how do you know when this is the case? I never knew this in the past and thinking back I wish someone would have told me but if I was to explain it- I would say you know a girl is yours when she likes you for no reason or when she just won't let go of you when you expect her to when i talk about girls liking u for no reason, I don't really mean NO REASON.. i just mean like.. u might not have a lot of money, you might not be tall, you might not have muscles, etc but she still likes you when i talk about women not letting go.. i mean like.. maybe you yelled at her, maybe you lost your job, maybe you live with your parents.. but she still stays in your life and still treats you well those things are ways to know when you have a woman sometimes there might be a subtle thing that lets you know a woman is yours also like a "good morning" text or phone call is a good sign because its like saying "hey you're a priority" basically also just looking at her overall willingness to do things.. whether you tell her to or not a girl might make you some food without being asked or maybe she will say she wants chinese food but you say "well i really wanted pizza" if she says ok lets do pizza then that can also be a good sign or if she is happy to do something simple with you like sit at home and watch a dvd, or just go to the mall.. then those are good signs.. because if she only wants to hang out with you at j. alexander's or ruth chris then she may not really value you as a person.. she just wants your attention and dinner are you hearing more "yes's" than "no's" ? is she trying to accommodate to fit you into her life? or is she acting like she lives by her planner 24 hours a day? these are things to look for to see if a girl is yours women who are yours (in my experience) are rare so if you find one who is an "8" or above to you then you may want to consider her for the long haul March and April were decent months for me
i went through some crazy things at my job and basically almost got fired over something so petty and dumb that i'm not even going to repeat it here.. it had nothing to do with me but everything to do with a petty person who is "above" me at work this caused me to start looking for jobs in overdrive.. and looking for jobs in overdrive caused me to stop working out again on some "which one is more important" type ish March and April were interesting to me because i went to the eye doctor and the dentist this is the first time in my life i've ever had benefits and doing these things made me feel like an actual participating member of society for the first time it wasn't too long ago that i couldn't keep a job, i had no stability, i was in school, i couldn't afford to get new contacts or glasses or anything like that i think about it and i really feel for guys out there who can't get on their feet and find a footing in this world.. i know there are people out here who are struggling in march i had a mild depression.. in april i had some stressors but i stayed afloat and made it and i'm happy about just keeping things going but i honestly hope to "obtain" as opposed to just "maintain" how do men deal with women?
oftentimes i hear women say things like: "i know i (insert low integrity thing here) but you shouldn't do it because you're a man!" lol how does a man deal with someone who basically uses their gender as an excuse to make ridiculous decisions? what is a man supposed to do? like how do you reason with someone who is literally telling you not to hold them to any kind of standard and another thing i don't understand how to react to is this thing where women try to act like they are so busy or above you or something women don't have it in them to say "i'm not interested" they instead make excuses.. so as a man you are faced with a decision to try and scale the wall or keep it moving "keep it moving" is the better option because i am not subject to the games but the issue with "keep it moving" is i am leaving that woman there.. i might really like her and want her.. i may not want to leave her there, i want to take her with me so how does a man get a woman without playing into the stupid games? this is why i say it seems that women do not want to be pursued, they seem to know what they want and go after it.. this is why its the men who don't pursue women who have all the women.. the men who pursue women are the ones getting the voicemail.. so why do women even say they like to be pursued? it doesn't make any sense i sometimes think about women in my age group who are single and i legit wonder why they are single.. especially the pretty ones.. how can a pretty woman who is late 20s early 30s be single with no kids and never have been married? i am learning the reasons why lately because i run into a few things: 1. women who play hard to get.. which feels (at least to me) like a waste of time i don't even understand why women do this.. if i knew then maybe i could use it to my advantage, but right now i don't even get it.. like what is gained in acting hard to get? i LITERALLY don't know 2. women aren't serious about finding someone.. remember when you were in school and the teacher would tell someone to stop daydreaming and focus? thats how i see women a lot.. its like.. why are they so aloof and disinterested? like i don't understand.. what do they care about? my interest is shown because i call or text or take a woman out or ask her about herself but a woman's interest generally just isn't there.. they don't want to know about me, they don't call or text, they just kinda sit there.. they don't care to really be present or show interest back or anything.. its like they just want the attention but no other aspect.. which reminds me of how women say men just want sex and nothing else.. but i am learning how to weed out women who just want attention mainly by asking open ended questions.. or even closed ended ones like "can i call you" i texted a girl that the other day i said "hey do you have time to talk? can i call you?" she said "no, sorry" and that was it- like she gave no excuse and she didn't say "no, but maybe later" ..somehow the "no" felt like "never" to me i was glad she told me the truth but its like.. why were you even wasting my time in the first place? if you knew you didn't want to talk to me why the hell did you give me your number? attention i guess.. but that is so shallow wow lol 3. a lot of women are into their looks.. this a lot of times makes them like valueless.. what i mean by this is that they like to share their good looks and body with everyone on some level.. this in turn also means that their good looks and body are not exclusive to anyone this makes them have some value to all men but no value to one man.. no man can say "that's my woman and she is beautiful" i just don't know like.. what is the point of flaunting something to everyone as opposed to using it for the actual purpose it was created for? the bible even talks about it- it says proverbs 5:15 Drink water from your own cistern, flowing water from your own well. Should your springs be scattered abroad as streams of water in the streets? Let them be for yourself alone, and not for sharing with strangers. Let your fountain be blessed and rejoice in the wife of your youth. men do it too when men have a lot of money and they take pictures with wads of money instead of just keeping their money for their household, their wife, their kids, their future.. they are flaunting it and flashing it for everyone, maybe buying people expensive dinners, maybe buying nice cars to impress multiple women why not keep your "waters" in your own cistern? like logically it doesn't make sense you see these people these days who are married to the world as opposed to married to one actual person when it comes to my own issues i think i have a few.. and i am working on them.. here they are in no particular order - i have recently learned NEVER to do a first date with other people around under any circumstance - i need to get in shape - i could use a better job both for my personal morale as well as a pay increase - i am learning not to argue with women.. they do things that are admittedly illogical and so its better to ignore them when they do something absurd because what is the point of arguing with them when you know they either won't understand or won't care.. i had a girl tell me once that her decisions "don't have to make sense" i imagine a girl would agree with that, but i can pretty much guarantee that men think that is a dumb statement.. things are more peaceful when i just "smh" and keep it moving, arguing just makes women think you are weird or something.. half the time they know when they are acting out and they just want to see what you will do about it.. so i am learning to laugh at things women do as opposed to lower myself and argue about it.. i'm learning you just can't really take women seriously so i think it goes both ways.. women have their issues they need to work on and i have mine but will women always treat me like i have nothing to offer? to be continued i guess this video shows how lesbians are created.. lesbians and masculine women who are always talking about being "independent" and "strong" sidenote: newsflash to all women.. when you brag about being "independent and strong," men just hear "stubborn and inflexible and masculine" which makes them think... "next" without a man's guidance/protection.. women don't even really feel they have the right to be women they are too busy trying to accommodate for the lack of a proper masculine role to think about the feminine one this sort of thing (what you just watched) is also what makes feminism so terrible.. because their ideals would say its good for women to be the leaders and the providers lol.. they think these things are good.. if they are good then why the f*ck is this situation creating tears? it seems to me that deep down most women want to prance around and look cute while a good reliable man looks out for them and protects them.. women generally don't want the man's leadership role, if they did then they would seek out men who are weaker than they are.. but time and time again women want men who are taller, stronger, more educated, make more money, etc feminism refuses to acknowledge gender roles and in fact revels in gender confusion.. and it is full of ideals that contribute to lesbianism and the destruction of family |
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