i wrote this verse last night.. woke up this morning and read over it.. and it seems to mark a shift in my thinking: With tears in my eyes I’m overcoming the pain/ Cuz real talk if I stand strong, struggle is gain/ Its my life, day or night I gotta love it the same/ Bring it on, I’m not succumbin- I reign/ over self, cuz straight up- I’m over self/ God hold’s my health and bestows the wealth/ So u can keep the advice u need to show yourself/ ….Or find somebody weak you can go and help/ Pool boy I’m gnna speak til my soul is felt/ Don’t need no drinks I rock sober health/ I’m just keepin it real, keepin it simple and still/ Reachin.. teachin, and preachin, bringin something you feel/ hard times got me boxed but I’m thinkin outside of that/ They talkin limits but I’m really not buyin that I’m not cryin, nah.. no time for that/ Thanks for the ammo, time to fire back/ its weird because its not the regular "my life is terrible and here's why" its amazing how writing captures your mindstate so well standing back and reading this is a trip to me.. its like wow this actually has a positive tone to it for a long time i felt like this song represented my life have i made progress? for a really long time i've had 4 goals..
1. graduate college 2. get a real job (by real i mean decent pay and decent living and not temporary) 3. get a place 4. get a girl since i have accomplished 3 of the 4.. am i feeling better? have the black clouds scaled back? or have i matured? or both? last night i realized a girl i've been talking to for a year, flat-out stopped talking to me.. i spoke to someone about it and they basically made the whole scenario my fault (as always.. which is why i talk on a website instead of to people) .. but after a few hours of feeling low, i legit realized i'm fine with it i'd call that progress.
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