seems like i've been becoming more alone for the past few months
i'm going to explain everyone who has exited my life over the past few months for one reason or another +++++++++++++++++ chrissy - we went out to eat and she told me she was moving to the united kingdom and not coming back.. i just stopped talking to her after that because i don't like the whole "here today gone tomorrow" thing.. it gets old after a while.. i feel like she does things like that a lot.. a few times i basically had to beg her to talk to me so i considered that the last straw.. that day when she told me that i kept saying over and over "just go" and that's really how i feel.. like lets stop the whole come and go thing, just go also i definitely felt like i was the last to know she was planning that, so i also just felt stupid.. girls are good at making you feel small or like you don't matter.. like "guess what? i'm moving to another country and you don't matter enough to know about it until after i'm about to step on the plane!" i saw her at the mall one day and she said she got kicked out of the country in customs or something.. not sure if that was true or not +++++++++++++++++ jasmine - she just up and stopped talking to me.. i never met jasmine in real life, she was just an internet friend i had for a few yrs but she stopped talking to me with no explanation or anything one day i finally looked her up online and i saw that she met a guy and he got her name tattooed on himself i think its cool she found a guy but why did she have to stop talking to me without at least explaining why? i get it.. ur preoccupied with your new relationship and i didn't make the cut.. i mean we're all adults here.. don't ignore me though.. i mean that's just disrespectful +++++++++++++++++ devon - have no idea what happened to her at all the last thing i remember her saying was she was moving out of her parents house so i'm not sure what happened with her new living situation +++++++++++++++++ eric - eric always meant a lot to me.. i always considered him like a real special guy because you won't meet anyone more honest than him.. he really embodies the "honest to a fault" thing the only bad thing is i sometimes felt like he was not putting effort into our friendship he has a hard exterior so i overlooked it a lot but sometime this year i decided i was just done because.. i started thinking about how he never seemed to have time for me unless it was a text message i give him credit because he listened to my songs though.. i do give him that i have no animosity toward eric but i just don't care to try to reach out anymore +++++++++++++++++ sondra - sondra stopped talking to me because i didn't go see her when i went to seattle the last time i saw sondra in real life was literally like 1998 we talked on the phone a lot and when i went to seattle she wanted me to drive to oregon to see her.. i kinda had my own agenda when i was there so i didn't do that.. and when i got back to tennessee she just ignored me +++++++++++++++++ ciarra - i feel like i have no idea who ciarra is.. we hung out and i enjoyed spending time with her and she said she enjoyed spending time with me but she just stopped talking to me i don't know what i did or what happened in her life to make her stop talking to me but she really sort of led me on like she'd rather answer the phone and make up a lie about wanting to see me than A. just not answer, or B. just answer and tell me the truth so i guess that was a new level of disrespect for me +++++++++++++++++ overall its like the song i wrote "people come and go i can't halt the traffic" it is wat it is, brah
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