today is my 1yr anniversary of graduating college
looking over 1 yr.. i'd say so far so good its important sometimes to remember where you've been and the obstacles you've overcome.. it helps you keep things in perspective when you look at my life without hindsight, i look like a bum but when you consider i graduated a yr ago, and since then i.... A. visited seattle (something i wanted to do for years) B. got a good entry level job (got a $200 bonus yesterday) C. started talking to a girl (no word on if we will be an item yet, but she's pretty) things seem like they're falling into place anyway stay blessed peeps btw, i might talk about this girl later so stay tuned
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i've noticed i have like 3 moral compasses 1 - God 2 - other people 3 - myself God has the highest standard.. and that is what i try to live up to but i don't live up to it as much as i'd like to.. hopefully this will change but its something i'm working on the "other people" moral compass is just me thinking about how my actions affect others my moral compass is just.. a very basic "don't be a prick" type of thing think of it in terms of sex with a teen girl: God's standard - you can't have any form of sex until you're married, and you can't legally marry under the age of consent- so don't even think about it other people standard - i wouldn't want to have sex with a teen because that girl might regret it later.. but i'm straight up defiling anyone who can prove they're 18 self - if there's grass on the field, play ball this is why it is important to keep God as your moral compass, because our personal standards for ourselves are not as good or as positive as God's standards we as people do not create right and wrong.. God does.. we can't say "i do what feels right and don't do what feels bad, therefore i am good"... because your standards will not meet God's standards.. i know this because we are all born in sin and we live in the flesh you have to walk in holiness to actually be a "good" person this is something a lot of people don't seem to understand oh, wow.. i just remembered, i actually said this in a song.. the last line of this song i've noticed there are 3 places you can be in life when it comes to career
1. not doing anything 2. doing something you don't like, but at least making money 3. making money doing what you enjoy doing i am guessing people reading this are likely in scenario #2 so my thing is this- recognize where you are and think about it.. don't feel bad because you are not #3.. instead, give yourself credit because you are not #1 here's what i think scenario #2 people should do: keep doing what you're doing in your work because you are supporting yourself BUT. take your free time more seriously try to accomplish more of your dreams in your free time.. don't just go out to eat with friends and go bowling and play video games and go shopping.. keep your eyes on the prize.. try to keep devoting time to your dream keep trying to become that #3 person this is elementary stuff i'm saying but i think it should help us reevaluate where we are and where we are going i've been working my job like a good boy
i currently get paid once every 2 weeks, i got paid once so far and it was for one week of work.. so u could probably imagine, i spent it fast whenever i get my next check i would like to use it to get a place.. i guess they charge u a deposit, and first and last months rent so i may have to wait for the next check after this seeing as how i still need to pay some other things but i really want my own place.. every morning at my house is pretty terrible whenever i do anything, my dad is right there.. its awful.. i open my door and there he is, i try to eat breakfast and there he is.. its just so messed up.. he's always there.. he doesn't look for work because he is going to be 60 soon.. so he feels like he can't get a job i can't wait to leave this house.. another thing i want is more exercise.. i don't exercise right now because its too hot in my house.. and i hate going outside for a lot of reasons.. one of the main ones is people don't put their dogs on leashes.. one time i went to jog and two big dogs started running after me.. considering the fact that i'd rather be shot than mauled by a dog- it keeps me from wanting to go out i had a gym i was going to but i refuse to give them money now because of the fact that they took money out of my account without asking.. it took me weeks to get the money back so i just refuse to do business with them anymore so i need a gym to work out in.. something convenient or i at least need some privacy and air conditioning so i can exercise, i was thinking if i can get a bottom floor apartment then i can work out at home without bothering anyone for some reason i feel like i have lost a lot of "friends" recently but i've been meeting new people and by recently, i mean within the past 9 months or so anyway, gotta go so i thought about the last of us and what may happen if they make a sequel
i want to be the first to speculate on what might happen ok so the black girl will still be alive for some reason she's going to find ellie and they will be happy to see each other but the black girl will know that joel killed marlene.. the fireflies have officially made him like their worst enemy and all the fireflies know joel by name and face.. all the fireflies want joel dead or alive so the black girl won't know that ellie is friends with joel.. but eventually she will see joel and set him up to be killed, but ellie will find out and he and ellie will narrowly escape when ellie asks joel why they want him dead he'll lie again.. he'll make something up then ellie and the black girl will be like enemies and there will be like a sort of civil war between the two girls and that civil war will eventually become like joel being forced to leave the camp for good when the fireflies are alerted to the fact that he lives there (because remember joel's brother's wife wants them all to be safe) so joel and ellie will be out there alone with no place to go, trying not to be killed by clickers and fireflies joel and ellie will be out there in the wilderness surviving and what will happen is ellie will finally notice some inconsistencies in joel's story, so she'll be like "WHY DO THEY WANT TO KILL YOU!" and joel will have to fess up and say he killed marlene.. then ellie will have a decision to make on whether to stay with joel or abandon him she will stay with him and then they will end up being approached by the fireflies and the black girl and she will still want to kill joel despite ellie in the end, the only one who will be able to save joel will be the black girl and she will have the opportunity to kill joel but she will let him go free for ellie's sake now.. anyone who played the last of us and the dlc... WAS THAT NOT A LEGIT SPECULATION!? seriously i really killed it imo... they should hire me as a writer, because if that's not the story to tlou2.. it seems like it at least could or should be of course i'm skipping a few details but i think that's a good overall speculation i run across old assignments because i type something into my computer and when it searches, then it finds old essays and stuff
here's one i just ran across.. this is a must read imo.. its about age categories placed on people and how they can affect society's view of a generation age categories or "age cohorts" remind me of race a bit.. in that they are man-made categories placed on people that can do more harm than good i'm not so much against generalizations in every situation because they can be useful for constructive conversation.. but the media plays games with people and we all need to recognize that anyway check it out James Smedley Dr. Flower Sociology of Aging X’ers vs. Boomers Systematic Age-Based Division An age cohort is an age group given a name or a label. Age-cohort explanations allow for mass generalizations of people. This is mostly a negative and misleading thing because of the spin they put on these groups of people who are insinuated to be cohesive. Through age-cohort explanations of problems and phenomena, groups of people can be easily vilified when they are not an enemy, or another group may be described as lazy or inherently incompetent unjustly. This is done through subtle language cues and descriptions. Youth may be described as the mistreated and under-appreciated underdog but to describe the youth as such would be to assume all the youth reside in a single economic class. The article “The Xers vs. The Boomers” pointed out that older people have been described as passing a “bad check” to the young. This sort of language when continually received from the media creates a climate of strife between the older and the younger generation that is systematically put in place to divert attention from the true oppressors of the struggling population. I am not sure which age cohort I belong to personally. I could possibly belong “Generation-X,” I could also belong to “Generation Y,” or I’ve also heard before that I could possibly belong to a more specific sounding age cohort called “Twixters.” “Twixters” are supposed to be between childhood and adulthood for an extended period of time. They have a difficult time going from high school graduation to productive citizen living in relative normalcy. They have menial jobs and no job security and are seen as screw ups not living up to their true potential. The description of the “Twixters” has hidden within it an insult to those who may claim it. It is saying that even though you have no job security, and you are having a hard time getting stability in your life, it is your own fault and the societal structure has no part in your struggle. There is a time for personal accountability however at the same time societal factors should not be dismissed as having a great effect on its members. When it comes to the rest of the age-cohorts I know about, they also have a few stereotypes attached to them. “Boomers,” the article points out- (which is supposed to represent the older generation) are seen as being greedy, self-righteous, undeserving, and unwilling to share. They have enjoyed, abhorred, or at least seen the hippie generation and the Vietnam war. “Generation X” has been described as made up of “slackers” and they have also been called the “hard-luck generation.” They have seen, and grown with the rise of the internet and so they are seen as tech-savvy. I haven’t really ever thought of myself as being an age cohort mainly because I’ve never really known which one I belonged to. However I’ve always identified with the “Twixter” generation classification. I don’t know if I’d ever really say I am a “Twixter,” (to do so would be to insult myself and perhaps retard my potential) however I understand the description because myself as well as a lot of my friends have indeed had a hard time transitioning into normalcy, or family life, or a productive lifestyle. I look at it more as a description of society than a description of myself. The biggest challenge I believe my generation faces is finding stability in life. No matter how regular your work days are, you do not have stability if you do not earn a living wage. I realize a lot of people are not earning a living wage today. Also I have noticed a lot of jobs prefer to constantly hire and fire people as opposed to hire and keep those employees. I personally feel like they keep their finger on the trigger to keep costs down. They get people in the door by promising benefits and tuition reimbursement, however they don’t kick in for about three to six months. Unfortunately, there is an 80-90% chance you will not make it at that particular job long enough to reap the benefits. I have a friend who graduated from Belmont University which has a great reputation however he works twenty hours a week in retail and lives in a bedroom with a shower curtain for a door. He feels like his Belmont degree owes him more than what he got out of it. He too, has not yet reached stability. I don’t believe the media accurately portrays these challenges. I don’t believe the media accurately portrays anything. I believe the same people behind skewed and misleading age-cohort descriptions are the same people behind the media. For an example of the media and their propaganda about an age war, I located an article at USAToday’s website. Part of the article explains (concerning Generation-Y), "They've grown up questioning their parents, and now they're questioning their employers. They don't know how to shut up, which is great, but that's aggravating to the 50-year-old manager who says, 'Do it and do it now.'" (USA, 2008) I feel that this article is false because for one- what they are saying is a sweeping generalization that doesn’t acknowledge any economic, cultural, or even employment industry factors. I also feel that most everyone who has finished high school or college is so used to following rules and listening- that it is highly unlikely that they would enter the workforce and all of a sudden be “bad” at it. Also, right off the bat they are pitting one generation against another and saying that Generation-Y is likely to frustrate, undermine, and even anger older generations. It is unnecessarily divisive (likely for controversy/ratings) as it fails to detail how different generations work in tandem to create a dynamic and highly functional society. References Gullette, Margaret Morganroth 2004 “The Xers” versus “The Boomers” A Contrived War. pp.371-379 USAToday. 2008 “Generation Y: They've arrived at work with a new attitude” Armour, Stephanie. USAToday.com Retrieved Sept. 16, 2011 (http://www.usatoday.com/money/workplace/2005-11-06-gen-y_x.htm) i ran across this article today and it was really good
it echoes a lot of the things i say about women projecting the wrong things to men and then being upset when we don't like it http://www.evanmarckatz.com/blog/dating-tips-advice/why-dont-men-like-smart-strong-successful-women/ read if you are interested in why men don't like CEO type women- he explains it in what is probably the least offensive way the other day as a matter of fact i told someone i want a woman who is overweight, over 30, and under educated they looked at me like i was crazy especially at the under educated part and i told them.. its because so many "educated" women project the wrong things its like they don't know how to handle any "power" or "prestige" or "status" without becoming condescending to those who around them those women need to figure out if they want a man or a child.. because you direct a child, not a man.. you can't be saying something like "i'm blunt and direct and i make my own money and blah blah blah" because you are projecting the wrong things.. MEN ARE NOT AFRAID OF YOUR "SUCCESS" WE JUST DONT WANT THAT ENERGY YOU BRING TO THE TABLE its sorta like.... are you mariah carey or are you missy elliott? they are both successful female artists but they project different energies.. mariah is obviously the more feminine of the two.. success is not intimidating to men.. we just don't like the masculine energy a lot of women have on themselves when they achieve.. a lot of them lose their femininity it just is what it is i mean missy has a song even saying "i'm a bitch" think about the connotations of saying such a thing.. does a man want a self-proclaimed bitch? with bitchy habits, ways, tendencies, and attitude? mariah is married because she has what we men like.. feminine energy is attractive to men.. sorry we don't want the direct, do-what-i-say, i don't need you, attitude having, masculine energy having, "bitch" i met a pretty girl recently and i found it a little hard to have "flowy" conversation with her
i asked myself.. do pretty girls have no personality? what do u guys think? would u be better off just finding yourself a nice 6.5 out of 10 who makes u breakfast and laughs at your corny jokes? what good is a 10 if you feel like you have to do everything and u always feel like she is holding back |
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