in this entry i want to talk about the top 3 "weirdest" females i know
these are in no particular order i don't know why i'm doing this btw.. i just feel like doing it exhibit A. devon devon is odd because when i met her she came off as extremely well adjusted and 'normal' but she isn't... AT ALL she is a reminder to me that people shouldn't intimidate you because a lot of people who seem perfect or seem to have attained a lot of things are still insecure or fake i'm not saying she's insecure or fake at all (cuz she's not), i'm just saying that knowing she is pretty much 80% diff than what i first perceived shows me this can be the case with anyone i come across in a day and age where women wear pant-suits and often boss people around for a living, its good to know looks can be deceiving i remember reading a bart simpson book when i was like 10 (i think it was called bart simpson's guide to life or something) that boys act stupid and crazy for attention and girls act smart and perfect i never forgot that, and i still believe its true.. this is why when girls are going through something, you find that you are the last to know devon was and possibly still is like that a lot.. "what do you mean you cut yourself?" "what do you mean you've been in therapy for years?" "what do you mean you enjoy watching the home shopping network just to hear the talking?" just weird things you don't expect to hear or see.. like peeling back layers and thinking you can predict the next one but you can't lol +++++++++++++ exhibit B. espranza espranza thinks like a guy i don't know how many times she told me she doesn't want a wedding.. she wants to just go to the courthouse and immediately go home and get it cracken that is how men think i remember i took a liking to her years ago and i asked her if she wanted to make it official and be a couple and she said something like "no but we can date" .. considering she liked me, her family liked me, and we were on the same level, same religion, etc... this was vastly confusing to me.. aren't girls normally the ones who want the 'titles' to go along with their relationships? not this one! she doesn't have the same desires or interests as normal women.. she thinks very practically instead of emotionally she has a 'take it or leave it' attitude but its not the superficial kind women get via osmosis from beyonce songs after a bad breakup.. its a legitimate I DONT CARE from her heart i pulled away from her one day after she explained to me that she always forgets her friends birthdays and sometimes just doesn't answer the phone it just got to where i realized this was really how she was.. like "whatever" personified so after not talking to her for a long time she texted me one day out of the blue and i was surprised she still had my phone number then one day i got busy and i said to her "sorry i haven't really talked to you in the past few days" .. do you know what she said back to me? "its ok, remember the time i didn't talk to you for 2 years?" considering she tells me i'm one of her 'real' friends.. that sh*t is seriously weird and to be honest, i really don't know how i feel about that.. but knowing her... i accept it +++++++++++++ exhibit C. cassy cassy gave me my name 'pool boy' years ago ok she has good weird and bad weird her good weird is that she is white but she goes to trayvon martin rallies.. this sort of behavior shows that she understands the world from a sociological standpoint.. it also shows that she is selfless to an extent these^ things are weird/peculiar in a good way her qualities that are weird in a bad way are she carries herself with a certain arrogance that is highly unmerited the bible talks about how some people who are rich think they have no need for the Lord and His word but in reality they are "wretched, pitiful, poor, blind, and naked" this is somewhat what i think about when i see cassy for example she always seems to think she knows the answer to your problems before you even finish telling her the whole scenario.. meanwhile her life is like a huge trainwreck and describing someone's life as a trainwreck sounds harsh but you'd understand if i explained it she is the type of person who can't really take advice, she can only give it.. this puts her at an extreme disadvantage in life because she has to learn everything the hard way the other day for example, she said she told guy #1 that she had sex with guy #2.. and she wondered why guy #1 was upset about it.. she said to me: "james, he told me i'm having sex with 3 black guys" (himself included) as if he really disrespected her i'm thinking.. YOU ARE HAVING SEX WITH 3 BLACK GUYS.. lol that would be like me getting upset that some girl says i live with my parents.. i f*cking DO live with my parents.. getting mad at the truth is a sign of delusion i think she was raised by her dad which is why she thinks the way she thinks.. i feel bad for her sometimes she thinks she has it together but she doesn't.. like the other day she said this: "i want to get to the point where i don't want a man.. i mean i'm a busy person so i'm fine by myself.. i just get three pillows, put one between my legs, i hug one, and put the other on my side.. i'm fine being alone" i'm thinking.. really? and on top of that, just a half hour before she said this, she told me how she couldn't wait for school to be back in session.. in other words she tries to act like her life is full of activity and meaning but it isn't.. she is forcefully occupying herself.. hiding behind a facade of "i'm busy so my life is not empty" when in reality she is vastly overweight which loudly proclaims "MY VOID IS NOT FILLED!!!" she sadly clutches delusions that sate her only for a moment +++++++++++++ overall if i were to give a final thought- i'd say this.. try to appreciate who a person is under the surface if possible they might appear diff or peculiar but that doesn't mean they are bad or not worthwhile you might be able to help them, or they might be able to help you, or you two might just have fun together weird is not necessarily bad.. and even if it IS bad, its not necessarily on purpose! hollaz
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