this entry might possibly be deleted soon, its just me reflecting a bit back around 05 and 06 i used to sometimes make beats simply to express emotion on style by fire i made this beat which was a good mix of emotion and rhythm.. kinda like 50% emotion and 50% just me trying to make something that sounds decent i put it on the album by itself as an instrumental when i listen back to style by fire sometimes, i hear mistakes and things i should've said or done differently
but this beat pretty much remains good imo (sidenote: i didn't use any samples on that album.. it's all from scratch) i think the thing that makes this beat work for me is the fact that it accomplished the goal i had for it well- and to a point where it tends to always bring me back to that place (emotionally) see back when i was making style by fire i was really sad inside.. i was young.. i was something like 21 so i should've been really happy and experiencing new things but i flunked out of school, had no idea what to do, i was working at a video store, my girl left me, my heart was utterly shattered, i looked so good on the outside but felt like i was dead at every moment of life well.. see.. this instrumental was made to reflect my stasis at the time.. how i couldn't do anything.. i just watched life go by for a while in a state of stoic emotional shock.. the overwhelming feeling at the time was EMPTINESS (with a nice helping of worthlessness on the side) when i hear this beat, i hear that emptiness.. i see myself just sitting looking out the window not saying anything i see people talking to me and expecting me to be "james" when i didn't have the energy to be anything.. not even myself that was the absolute worst time of my life and i have this beat as a remnant
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