what's up peeps
i don't know what i'm going to say at all right now but lets see what happens. i've been really tired of everyone lately.. i really want to go all out and blaze everyone but i feel like i should try to muzzle my sentiments a bit.. so instead i will just say that most people i have in my life have been irritating me are they irritating me or am i irritable? are they making me upset or do i just hate everyone because i hate myself? and there's another issue i've been dealing with this whole self hatred thing.. i look at myself and feel like i don't measure up to even my own standards the main thing that has been bothering me as of late is my lack of any skill with women.. i just cannot get a girl for anything i went out with a girl the other night.. she was way fatter in person than she was on her pictures and even she turned me down! .. she said something about how she could tell i didn't have any tattoos without even asking me.. i deduced that she didn't like that i sometimes just feel like i can't catch a break when it comes to women.. i mean wow i just feel like a failure.. this causes me to dislike myself sometimes.. not from a superficial standpoint, but from my heart.. like i'll be standing on an elevator and i'll think "wow man i hate myself" .. its just a thought that comes, and subconsciously i know i want to prove it wrong.. but i can't if the thought comes and says "you're a loser because no girl will ever want you" what the f*ck am i going to say back to the thought? "you're wrong" ???? i have nothing lined up.. no girls, nothing.. some girls have been interested in me but man.. the last girl that liked me had four kids.. and was also divorced twice.. my point in telling you that was to point out that generally the girls who like me aren't the women you want to really be with i DO appreciate that women with kids like me though.. i appreciate it because it kinda tells me that i give off a more husband-y type vibe anyway.. please wish me luck on getting a woman in my life.. scratch that.. PRAY that i get a woman.. scratch that.. FAST AND PRAY anyway.. u guys take it easy hopefully i'll be back on here saying more soon
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dlux
9/24/2013 10:04:21 am
ur not the only one who deals wit this...u hit every nail on the head.
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jaims
9/25/2013 10:13:49 am
thanks
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