so today i feel somewhat low.. i feel like i really need some help finding a woman
i have been trying to get close to crystal but it never seems to work the other day i was outside and she came out so i walked up to her and i was beginning to talk to her and everything was cool then the instructor guy came out, barged in on our conversation and started talking about some f*cking movie i cannot begin to tell you how upset i got about this considering i have to hear his dumbass jokes 8 hours a day 40 hours a week already then after this- at another time, i tried to sit by her and before we ever got any down time (so i could talk to her) she moved! so i look and i see her sitting somewhere else and i'm like oh u don't wanna sit by me? she's like "i can't see the projector" am i seriously that bad of a guy? like come on man i'm not asking for much, i just need enough time to have a decent conversation i have more to say about my love and 'pursuit' of crystal but lets move on because this entry will be depressing enough without the finer details so i somewhat got a little interested in a diff girl named lydia at work.. at first i was wholly unimpressed but once she started dressing like a girl (stopped wearing jeans/t-shirts) i began to see she had a few decent traits like some curves and also she is honest well i asked her if she was single yesterday and she said "yes and no" .. she went on to elaborate and explained she is having sex with a married man hm... NEXT. ok so i have two 'far away' girls i'd like to talk to (met them online) but guess what? i got paid yesterday and i already have less than $40.. how is this possible? mainly car insurance.. i'd love to go visit these girls who stay further out but it would be unwise of me to do this knowing that the money spent on gas would tap me out.. so i find myself at home today typing this.. wishing i had a girl to hang out with, talk to, and look at ...i don't know what to do man, seriously! i need a girl! and you know what irks me? every single f*cking time i say that outloud, then someone says "you don't need a girl" really? so what do i need then? to sit around and be alone all day every day? i need to 'look-but-don't-touch' every f*cking day of my life? is that what i need, asshole? huh? i mean talk about insult to injury! and its always women who say this so that tells me THEY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE A MAN NEWSFLASH: IM SORRY BUT WE MEN ACTUALLY LIKE WOMEN OK!? I GUESS THATS A STRETCH FOR YOU WOMEN TO UNDERSTAND oh and another thing everyone tells me i should have a girl and i'm attractive and i seem like a good guy and i could have whoever i want thank you for saying such nice things but WALK A DAY IN MY SHOES if i'm such a cool guy then why can't i get any girls? like seriously i even invited a girl out for coffee today and she's like "maybe" ..... "maybe" ? really? don't ever be a cheerleader because your enthusiasm sucks ass i'm going to go on record right now and say to anyone reading this.. if you know what i'm doing wrong.. please leave a comment and tell me how and what to change so i can have a girl in my life i am not too proud to ask for advice i really need help
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