i just have not been able to talk in here
my whole desire to talk seems to have gotten really low
honestly though.. this shouldn't surprise me because i started writing entries in i think like 06 on myspace and in 07 i had a blogspot... but in 2008 i literally didn't write any entries or blogs AT ALL for the whole year
i guess what i'm saying is a dry spell (lack of desire to speak) isn't anything new
anyway.. when it comes to video games i beat rayman origins finally.. since i beat rayman and ni no kuni i decided to get grand theft auto 5
i have to say i really like gta5.. the characters and environments are very real.. one thing i really like also is how there's no loading time.. you install 8 gigs on the hard drive then after that everything runs insanely smooth
since my first game system was the regular nintendo, i play games today and i am amazed at how far they've come
one detail i really like so far is how you can shoot someone in their car and their head will hit the steering wheel and cause that long honk LOL
the guy who cut my hair got me sick recently
i sat in his chair and as soon as i sat down he said "let me go holla at this guy"
when he came back inside i realized he just went to go smoke because it was all i could smell.. smokers always do that.. they leave and come back and the smoke is still in their lungs.. so for like 15 minutes its almost like they might as well be smoking indoors
so he proceeded to cut my hair and breathe on me for 40 minutes or however long it took, and next thing i know i was sick and weak and i proceeded to get sicker until i had to stay home from work a few days and i ended up in the clinic.. i was prescribed amoxicillin and a steroid which i'm currently taking.. and two other drugs i didn't buy
i decided never to go back to that barber shop.. that was the last straw for me
but honestly, i feel like no one likes me here anyway so why get a haircut.. i'm not like women who always say something totally gay and fake like "i wear makeup for me"
look, ima tell you the real.. if women didn't exist i wouldn't give a CRAP how i look.. EVER
the other day at the store i saw a woman with huge hips.. i was just wanting to marry her right there with her hips looking like that.. so i walked up to her and told her she was really pretty and asked her if she was single
she seemed really surprised and grateful to hear that, but she said she was married
hips are a powerful thing.. its not so much about a woman's size its her shape.. i will gladly take an overweight woman if things are proportioned in the right areas
i bought family matters season 2 on dvd
its hard to describe my love for family matters or just "urkel" as i used to call it when i was a kid
i feel like i'm always watching the show in a few different ways
1. nostalgically - thinking about what i was doing in the 90s when watching it on abc's tgif
2. mourning old tv in general.. remembering the days when tv had morality.. when everything wasn't sex and scandal and selfish degenerate behavior
3. peeping game on real family, real friends, and caring and kindness and real issues.. the heart-to-heart moments are real nuggets of wisdom sometimes too
i also would like to get step by step on dvd eventually for a lot of the same reasons
(and i'd like a lot of other 90s shows too but those two are really close to my heart)
i have a question to ask
if you are depressed, or have been depressed..
do u get depressed like clinically? ..or is your life just bad?
this in my opinion is a good question to ask because the answer can be revealing
i think a lot of times we hear the word depression and we think we are actually depressed, when in reality we aren't mentally afflicted with depression.. instead we are literally dealing with bad, boring, meaningless, frustrating, loveless lives
have you seen the movie called "the scent of a woman" ??
it deals with what i'm talking about a bit.. a guy wanted to kill himself throughout the whole movie until his life changed for the better
so are you legitimately sad, like sad no matter what?
or do you need to change some aspect of your life?
we should try to know the difference and act accordingly