i'm battling depression really hard today
my mind just keeps saying everything is bad and i'm not good enough and things like this over and over gotta find something to be thankful for and/or something positive about myself to focus on sometimes i feel so inadequate
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i just got 6 dave matthews band albums
i have never really cared to listen to them however i just happened to hear some amazing songs from them in passing.. like for example.. someone was watching american idol and a contestant did one of their songs.. i thought the song was amazing.. it was enjoyable but it carried a certain amount of complexity, feeling, and left-field approach that struck me it may take a while for me to really absorb these albums.. i might have to just listen to one album per week for a while.. i'll try to come back on here one day and give an overview of this material so far so good tho peaCe i don't like most of today's poppy dance songs but i have to admit this one is actually good imo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nmrOcdSx3J4 ^i can't embed it on my site so go there if yew want to see it anyway.. yeah the beat and hook are on point.. but the lyrecs.. wow yo seriously.. really listen to the lyrics and think about that person you can never let go of this is talken tew me rite nowz the chick said "its gnna take a miracle to get over you" and tinchy basically questions: "how did you take a part of me like that?" or "how did you take a part of my soul?" it is kinda perplexing isn't it? you wake up one day and you're like "dang i can't stop thinking about so and so" like you get involved with someone and next thing you know you're no longer whole, you need that person to feel whole.. its kinda interesting/deep i guess this is what people are talking about when they speak on "soul-ties" so i guess this song somewhat goes with my recent "word of the day" post a bit too i think saw this on a dating site recently.. smh
seriously what guy will see this pic and say "i want her to be the mother of my kids!" or "i want to put a ring on it!" ? what guy would say ANYTHING positive about her after seeing this pic? the only guy who thinks this pic is cool is the guy under her lol i don't understand why a woman would post this as a pic to show on a dating site.. like i just really don't get it is a guy going to want to take you out and lavish gifts upon you after seeing this pic? like...... whatever.. why am i even talking about it building on my post about psychiatric drugs.. ok.. drugs and medications in general.. smh.. why do people think science is the end-all be-all ?
not saying all pills and medications aren't legit.. but obviously some are kinda absurd i'm not even kidding.. what prompted me to write this is about 2 minutes ago i saw a commercial for an athsma medication it LITERALLY said one of the side effects is "it can lead to death caused by athsma complications" HOW DOES THAT MAKE ANY SENSE!? some of these medications just have too many side effects and not only that, but the complications are too severe.. and not only that, but they're like an added bill you have to pay! yeah i think its safe to say someone is getting rich on some of these car-note meds i saw a thing on video where a woman took her son to the dr. to treat nightmares and a lack of sleep with lexapro.. but what i didn't get was why she agreed to buy it when one of the side effects is insomnia i'm sitting here like "I THOUGHT THATS WHAT YOU WERE TRYING TO CURE" and as for the nightmares.. whatever happened to praying? lol i see these commercials for medications and the side-effects outweigh the benefits pretty much every time! but watever.. just some stuff to think about if you or someone you know is on psychiatric drugs.. u may want to watch this
its fairly short but it makes sense are they making up "disorders" to sell you harmful pills? you decide... knowledge is power lately i think about women a lot
maybe its because i've been hanging out with a girl who i think is gorgeous btw i've said this before, but my favorite word with a female hue is "gorgeous" .. it weighs heavy on me.. it rejuvenates me to even harbor the thought of a gorgeous woman's presence i love women in a way that almost scares me they have so much power the beauty of a "ripe" and well-kept woman is pretty much indescribable i think about God sometimes and i think "wow, God created this woman" God made this enthralling and mesmerizing creature women are just so important to me i really feel like i can get by in this world single, but it seems like merely existing.. really LIVING seems to require the presence of a woman by my side i look at women the way women look at their children i deeply admire them.. from their greatest, most complex moments of triumph.. all the way down to the way they eat, or how they yawn, or any other minute detail the power a woman has is- i want to please them.. if i like you then i want to roll out the red carpet for you.. in many ways you women control my sense of pride or shame.. your approval is paramount i want to enjoy you and give you everything i have and more i want to make you happy and fill your world with everything you could ever need or want the only condition is you have to be mine exclusively i am very possessive over the women i care about.. people would like to think this is negative but why wouldn't you be possessive over a great gift? why would you just be careless with a treasured item? you will be protective of it and you will instinctually walk behind her to make sure each step she takes is a safe one if she's happy i'm beaming You would be very happy in a career that utilized your level-headedness, and allowed you to work mainly on your own. You want a career that allows you to stimulate your senses and your mind, without having to be involved with lots of people. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:
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