so teh pool boy went to counseling today
lol they had me sit on the couch and everything
this was my first time trying to reach out for some kind of help, but i came away from it feeling like i needed it, or like it helped me a bit
personally, i'd rather not make a habit out of counseling because everyone has problems.. whether u have counseling or not ur still going to have ur run-ins
but every once in a while we go through things and we are confused or in a transition period or feeling too much anxiety or whatever.. which.. i guess i fit all the above on that note
normally i wouldn't ask for help but i get an overwhelming feeling like no one understands what i've been going through.. there's a difference between "i'm having a bad day" and "f*ck being awake"
having a bad day is just a bad day.. while "f*ck being awake" (which is what i've been experiencing) is indicative of a problem
so anyway.. thank the Lord i finally got some perspective on things which is cool