i have decided to change my major.. i don't know if anyone will feel me on this decision.. but i honestly like.. can't do these literature stories anymore..
as u all can tell, all i've been doing for the past few weeks is complaining about how much i dislike school.. i don't like being this way.. my peace about school is gone.. flat-out, so i'm changing my major
i told u guys earlier that i emailed my advisor but i never told u what she said.. she recommended that i change my major.. at first i was like NO WAY.. but the thought didn't exactly go away.. and the more i think about it.. the more it seems to make sense
do i know what i'm going to change my major to? no.. however my core classes are done and like my advisor said, based on what i have, and haven't yet accomplished.. "its a good time to be looking into all this"
i finished converting some of my old beats to mp3s like i said i would, however i need a decent site where i can upload them as a whole album
if anyone wants them and doesn't want to wait, just email me and i'll email them to u
i want everyone who comes to my site to know that i do spend a good deal of time making fun of people or pointing out people and their b.s. or even pointing out school and its institutional b.s. ....but i am aware i'm not perfect
i mean honestly i'm 26 and still in college
i haven't had a steady girlfriend in years
i have no sense of professionalism in "the real world"
the list could possibly go on.. my point is, i know i am not above improvement myself
so if i offend anyone, it is what it is.. i don't write anything to offend anyone on purpose.. however i may sometimes offend people because i am a person with my own opinions
i could be politically correct at every moment on the site however in my opinion that would take away from a lot of the honesty involved
i don't aim at people to offend them however i am just going to say the things i think about because that is the point of the site.. i don't want anyone thinking like
"is james making fun of me?"
u may happen fall into a category of people i'm making fun of but NO i'm not aiming at you to hurt your feelings.. if i ever aim at someone i'll use their name
i feel like in general there is a difference between TRYING to offend people or just simply stating how u feel
my mission on this site is to simply state how i feel at any given moment
i found a Christian hip hop website called rapzilla.com its also on youtube.. it just compiles a lot of Christian hip hop artists and puts videos and interviews in one place
i'm quite happy i found this.. to be honest i probably need it
on metalocalypse, when u watch that show there's always like some guys who try to control what the band does.. they fear that the band may undermine their control of the world somehow because the band's music is so powerful
those people who are in control, i was thinking, they likely represent the government and/or illuminati.. and i'm not saying they actually represent those things, but i'm saying i'm sure illuminati members actually have meetings like the ones u see those people having on metalocalypse
like i was watching metalocalypse once and the government/illuminati/people in control (whatever u want to call them) were all like "we have to make sure all the movies and tv suck and are bland and at a low intelligence level so that people will remain dumb and easy to control"
basically, the further tv programming is from wisdom, knowledge, and understanding, the better
the show went on and some guy revealed that all the movie reviews were rigged, and because of things like this he was confident that "no one knows what a good movie is anymore" so as a result, he was able to make any type of movie and control his own revenue streams
when i saw this, i was just thinking to myself.. "wow there's a lot of truth said in jest"
i don't know how much of that kind of stuff really happens, but i know SOME measure of it does indeed happen
speaking of devious conspirators.. demons in hell also have meetings and things
what demons and satan want the most is to take u to hell, so demons get together and provoke things.. press peoples buttons to provoke divorce.. or get them to not forgive someone, or even to incite car crashes
one simple reason satan wants people to divorce is because God has rules about marriage and divorce and sexual relations.. if you get divorced u will likely get remarried but if you didn't get divorced for a valid Biblical reason, then when u get remarried you will be committing adultery in God's eyes
and i also want to talk about the whole car crash thing.. the other day i was telling someone a lot of people who continually get in car crashes have a curse on them or they are not living right.. a lot of these people are in sin and they know it but they are ignoring the Lord's "knocking at their heart"
when someone comes up to u and says "i've been in 4 car wrecks in the last 6 months" remember what i'm telling you
satan wants to take you to hell.. but the Lord in His great mercy may save u from dying in ur sin.. if satan can get away with taking your life while you are in sin, then his demons may try to get you.. but God is probably having a lot of mercy on you if weird things keep happening but u keep coming out ok
when people find out i watch jersey shore there seems to be a bit of conflict or misconception there because people know i don't live that lifestyle, so they are surprised that i watch the show
i want to talk about my point of view on this
just because i watch the show doesn't mean i condone their actions
i want to point out that i don't admire them, i think they are ridiculous.. i think the show is funny and interesting to watch but i'm not really laughing WITH them as much as i'm laughing AT them
to me personally they are ignoring everything God wants them to do and just doing whatever they want to do and i don't think that is wise at all
but i do understand why they live the way they live, i'm not a pretentious person, we were all born with a sin nature, i understand the appeal of just being ignorant of spiritual things and just pulling chicks every night and justifying every bad thing i do
as a person born with a sin nature, i understand it, however as a person who loves and respects Christ and what He did on the cross.. and as a person who believes in heaven and hell and wants to go to heaven.. i'm not about to do the things they do on the show
so for me personally.. i watch it and its like.. its like watching any other reality show or documentary about people who live in a way u don't agree with
like for example, earlier today i watched a show on national geographic about prison inmates... do i agree with the way they think and their way of life? NO
but do i want to get a glimpse of their lifestyle and thinking patterns and the things they go through? YES
if jersey shore made me want to sin, maybe i wouldn't watch it.. but it doesn't make me want to sin.. what i mean by that is i don't think their lifestyle is attractive
like say i am a recovering alcoholic and i see a show about people enjoying drinking, i probably wouldn't watch that because it would make me want to go back to drinking
but when i watch jersey shore, they have nothing in that lifestyle that i desire.. i will admit sometimes some of the girls on there are attractive, but they are so gross and ignorant that it ruins their attractiveness to me.. so i remain not desiring any of that lifestyle
so i wanted to point that out.. in my opinion, watching jersey shore doesn't make me a "trashy person" or whatever people think.. to me personally, its just a glimpse into that "party-all-the-time" lifestyle
i have no desire to live that life, i think its superficial and ridiculous in a lot of ways.. but its just interesting for me to see people who live so much different from me
again: I DO NOT CONDONE JERSEY SHORE LIFESTYLE
to me its just like watching a maury paternity test show or something.. it's totally obsurd and i don't condone the type of immoral sexual activity that would land u in such a position.. but its interesting to watch it unfold