whats up im at werk rite nowz
i feel like i haven't had anything important to say for a while.. sorry about that but i am just in a time where i am trying not to be really deep about things... keyword trying but yeah on a diff note, i've been seeing some bonkers things lately.. a girl who has been seeing a married man asked me for my insight on her situation.. i told her she deserves better than to be used by someone like that then this other girl on facebook called her kids dad "sperm donor" and said he hasn't seen the kids in about a year.. i thought about that for a bit.. its sad she is doing well though as far as i can tell.. i think she is a good woman today.. i see that a lot these days.. women who have the wrong priorities for a while, then they have kids and they become ultra-mature and a lot wiser the men on the other hand.. we don't seem to really change after having kids the same way women do.. as men, our sense of accountability in large part comes from the women in our lives.. so if we are not committed to them then it seems we don't mature/grow the way we should ++++++ i met a girl recently named kristen who i actually liked a lot but she seems to have no gauge of like what is proper to talk about and what's not.. i don't want to know about how much u like d*cks and types of d*cks u like how can u possibly attract someone who wants anything more than sex when that is what u focus on soon after meeting someone? i wish i could meet a girl who wasn't such a sex fiend.. it is royally annoying to me i want to have a conversation and all they do is yap about their past sex life and what they like sexually which i think is madd improper and disrespectful it is unfortunate because like i said i like kristen.. to me she is cute, honest, down to earth, sensitive, and fun.. i also like the fact that she is short.. i think its cute lol but i just can't sit and listen to some of the st.... u know i just feel like some people have no home training like what guy wants to marry this type of girl? this is why women find themselves having sex without commitment ALL THE TIME they don't exhibit any class or standards u don't meet a guy and start talking about d*cks.. like wow she makes me feel like a piece of meat.. how's that for a role-reversal everything is cheapened.. and i am appalled and saddened that i even have to explain this.. but like i said i seriously like kristen and i would be willing to be patient with her if she would try to meet me halfway on things like this ++++++ i was talking to another girl for an extremely short period of time recently.. i don't even remember her name here's what she did to turn me off.. first off asking me my "sign" .. look that astrology crap is garbage.. stop trying to sum me up from some stupid ass magazine articles.. GET TO KNOW ME and God mocks astrology in the bible.. i have no respect for it.. it is an occult/pagan practice btw this is not to be confused with astronomy.. astrology is like related to tarot and divination/ouija.. u get into spirit-guides and all this trash.. astronomy is scientific, astrology is more dealing with spirits the other thing she did was she asked me things that i felt were like interview questions as opposed to just getting to know me like "are your teeth straight?" "what kind of car do u drive?" she even asked me something i was offended by: "are you gay?" i put on my profile that i have Christian beliefs, and that i'm looking for a woman, and nothing about me appears "gay" so why would u ask me something like that.. like i always thought men were the ones in society who lack tact but i am seeing this is not always the case i mean imagine me "how big are your titties?" "are u a lesbo?" "how much money do u make?" like come on.. u can ask these things but at least try to ease into them with time and tact.. don't just come out asking me this stuff like u have some kind of checklist.. lets have a real conversation and grow together ++++++ yo seriously.. mental stress... WOW last night i literally sat in my bedroom.. i was very still.. deep in thought for hours the thoughts come at me in a way to where its like debilitating music sometimes seems my only refuge its like sometimes everything becomes a jumble.. i sometimes think this is where a woman would come in handy.. to help balance out my psychosis.. be someone i can lean on when i get in that state of weirdness.. even if she only serves as a mere diversion .. save me from myself ++++++ speaking of this.. i think i am beginning to recognize where thoughts come from i think i am beginning to understand and differentiate their origin like the other day i prayed for something and got an 'answer' immediately after asking the thought told me to do something to solve my problem.. and i was like.. hmm.. i think that was God.. i have never understood God's "voice" until recently it seems like i am beginning to understand it in my personal experience God is mostly comforting.. He also gives direction and useful instructions i am also beginning to distinguish thoughts/"voices" from the enemy like for example i will have thoughts that say "u are worthless" "no one cares about u" "nothing you do matters" but what i've been noticing is these thoughts generally come as a response to me trying to live right in thought and deed and also they are a seemingly direct response to me being a prayer warrior for myself and others as a result, this is also making me understand that my prayers are really helping people and they're not just going into the atmosphere and disappearing i'm only saying this so that u know if u are trying to live right u might be under attack but don't sweat it.. recognize it for what it is.. a feeble attempt to stop your prayer life and faith walk ++++++ anyway.. u all stay bonkers.. get at me anytime i will be getting another phone and service soon so i will not be missing calls anymore speaking of purchases i also need some new video games ya feel me but holla bac
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Giles
12/16/2011 06:56:25 am
I realised God is ALWAYS talking ,we just dont always listen,or know how
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jaims
12/16/2011 07:29:39 am
i feel u there, and that's an interesting take on it bro
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