i haven't been able to talk in here much because so much is going on in my head
i have been working on settling my life at counseling i was told to write down the top things that bother me about my life i did it and it really laid out a plan for me.. like what my priorities are and why r they being overlooked at times and how can i fix this in order to kill off this monstrous anxiety since then i've been walking along this path and doing what i can with what i have.. but it also got me thinking about a few more things.. like why do i even do the things i do? why do i believe some of the things i believe? how do these beliefs affect me? the gears are turning so much lately that i haven't been able to say much here on mah blog.. april 2011 is pretty empty in comparison to other blog months i think i was telling someone the other day that i want to change, i want to be a better person.. and its true and i hope this year will bring about much positive change for me people don't seem to understand this year has been one of the worst for me so far in some ways.. i just think im having a.... look here's an example to explain it: i was watching 50 cent's behind the music the other day because nothing else was on.. and during it he said "the worst part of my life wasn't any of the painful or hurtful times.. it was the confusing times" <--paraphrased and that kinda explains what my life has been lately.. just like who am i, where am i going, how do i get there, what is important, etc. i suppose this is a stage everyone goes through i just hope i can get through it successfully i was talking to a girl over the weekend and she said "the world is your oyster" which is very like.. cliche.. but something about the way she said it made me stop and think.. some people are able to get through to you while some other people aren't.. why is that? who knows.. but i felt like she was sharpening me as she was talking.. it meant a lot anyway.. this is just somewhat of an update of what's been going on with me my head has just been all over the place so everyone stay bonkers n mayk it do wat it do
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