life.. smh.. how do u deal with the things ur up against?
in my head i keep thinking "if i die before i wake, i guarantee i'll celebrate"
i don't know if its my horribly boring classes, the fact that i am always single, or the fact that i wish i had a career in music, who knows.. all i know is some days i feel like life is just lame
ever since high school life seems like one big nothing.. everything seems so average and lame.. how do u break out of constant mediocrity?
i always owe someone money whether it be school or my parents
i have yet to make a real, steady, worthwhile paycheck from anything i actually care about, such as writing or making music
i always feel like i'm doing busywork at school
i'm always in need of another job
in heaven i won't have these problems
in the Bible, part of man's curse was to work by the sweat of his brow.. meaning all his work is probably either just plain terrible, or caked with frustration.. well in heaven work is probably like play
i think about it sometimes.. how great it will be to die and leave this place and go to heaven
i'll probably ALREADY have a job, like without having to apply or anything, it'll probably just be like "welcome home james, here's your niche, we've been waiting for you to get here and occupy it with gladness"
the Bible talks about how Jesus made all the saints our own houses in heaven
our own houses are waiting for us.. no foreclosures or 30yr mortgages.. shoot 30yrs won't even exist because there will be no such thing as time
i've heard everyone's mansion in heaven has things in it just for that person.. like each house is tailored specifically to you... imagine that! i can't wait!!!!
i'll probably get in my house and be like.. OH SNAP! THIS MUSIC STUDIO IS ILL!!!!
i'll get there and hang out with people who died old but no one in heaven is over the age of 33 so everyone will be youthful
i've even heard that water in heaven is super clean, clear, and you can breathe in it
there will be no fear or pain, just chillen with Jesus and occupying whatever position the Lord has for me in heaven
everyone will be friends and i'll get to see all the fresh people in my family who God has taken
everyday will be a celebration and it'll never end
to me heaven is far more real than this reality i'm living in right now
i think about it a lot.. i think about how good it would be to leave earth and go to heaven
leave behind every negative thing and just go to heaven and play with all the little kids who were aborted and ish
everyone will be having so much fun and we will all be so blessed forever
i walk around campus thinking about stuff like this all the time
no wonder i hardly relate to anyone else lol