i may have spoke too soon
i stood up to do some stuff then it felt like a wave came over me and since then i have been back in bed i have no appetite its 3pm i haven't had anything to eat today everything feels foggy i feel upset inside over this.. i wish i had someone here to cheer me up
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man.. seriously i have had a hard week
i just woke up one day tired as balls and it just went on from there.. i couldn't work out, i got headaches, i wasn't sleeping regularly, i was cold even when it was hot.. i think my body just shut down for like 3 or 4 days straight up no joke it just shut down real talk i'm not kidding maybe this is my body's payback for never having sex.. my body doesn't know i'm a christian yet lol someone explain this concept to my body cuz i think its on strike yo for real i genuinely think my pain is over, i think i weathered the storm but it was not a joke at all anyway back to my normal grind cuz like i said i think i'm back to good (no matchbox) <--anyone get that? i seriously doubt it hollaz u wanna kno another thing that gets on my nerves.. people who listen to music despite the lyrics or blatant negativity in the song
just because a song SOUNDS good doesn't mean u should listen to it i am one of the biggest music fans u've ever seen probably so i understand how much music means to people but there has to be a point where you draw a line people worship those who make music and it is ridiculous.. like the other day on youtube i went to some hip hop song and someone said that the rapper was "god" ummm.. no.. he is a guy who made a song.. that's it or u have people just clutching onto music despite the negativity a lot of music is just basically negative, even without curse words just to keep you in a negative mindstate like say someone makes a very prideful song.. u may not notice it but the prideful ideas expressed will leave a 'residue' in your mind that will assist in how you view things maybe that prideful song will have ideas like "i'm the best" .. "no one helped me to get where i am" .. "i matter more than everyone around me, etc." then maybe u will begin to see things in a sense of "i am entitled to more than what i have" or "i'm gonna screw them before they screw me" or ........ i'll just give a practical example: 50 cent came out with "get rich or die trying" which translates to "get money by any means necessary" that mindstate doesn't have to always in every circumstance be negative, but in the wrong hands its dangerous "i will sell drugs, or kill, or hurt anyone just to get money" there are so many people out there without fathers today that i feel like every artist needs to be a fairly good role model people are growing up without guidance so sometimes they get it from songs.. they are supposed to get identity and a framework on how to think from daddy mostly but without that base- a lot of kids just get these things from tv, music, and worldly thinking i remember dmx in one song said he had sex with a corpse this is my point.. people take everything way too far.. a song is something u hum and sing along to, something that creates an image in your head.. and u have people out here just saying any old thing to the youth.. constantly breaking down their sensitivity to negative thoughts and actions.. eroding the conscience of all listeners u may have a person who is my age who just listens to any old thing because it sounds good like lil b just put out his album called "i'm gay" and i was telling my friend that i'm not going to listen to that because its garbage.. and my friend is telling me i'm closed minded because its good music.. i'm like I DONT CARE IF ITS GOOD MUSIC.. THE ALBUM IS CALLED "IM GAY" I DONT GIVE A CRAP HOW IT SOUNDS what would be the absolute extreme of negative music? what would be worse than moral erosion? i think the extreme of negative music would be where a person hides demonic spells or chants or witchcraft or backward messages in their song and then puts it out.. then u hear it, u sing along and all of a sudden as u sing along with it u are unknowingly cursing yourself and harboring demon spirits and unknowingly asking them to come into your life do u think this has never happened? i am not saying it happens all the time but i GUARANTEE YOU that it has happened before like for example i have seen jimmy page do a satanic ritual on stage before.. u don't know how these things affect u because spiritual things are invisible but do u think he did it without a reason? jimmy page owns an occult bookstore and also owns aleister crowley's old estate so basically these people who just listen to anything because it sounds good get on my nerves use some discretion don't open yourself up to just anything i know it is sometimes difficult to be responsible about things like this but u gotta at least start somewhere here is one thing that annoys me:
people who don't have the internet why is it that some people don't have the internet? what is a bigger priority than having the internet? to me its like 2nd after food.. like if u don't have the internet what are u doing with that extra $50 per month or however much it is? u better have a good excuse for not having THE INTERNET seriously this gets on my NERVES the internet is just like square one of society today.. if you don't have the internet YOU CANT EVEN SEND AN EMAIL how do you find information quickly? how do u apply to (most) jobs? how do you do quick banking transactions? how do you go to school (do research and get info)? how do u really stay on top of anything at all? not having the internet is really as bad as like not having a car or some ish.. you know, without the internet its like you almost don't even exist in a sense.. its like u come to battle with no weapons.. like u might as well get a time machine and go to the 70s because u are not equipped to live in 2011 without the internet if you don't have the internet its like i can't really keep in touch with u on a lot of levels, u can't visit my website, i can't let u hear a song, we can't exchange pics.. all we can do is talk on the phone or visit in real life which is fine but i've lived in 3 diff states.. lets face it, it is not always really possible to visit people u care about if you don't have the internet, i should be able to just punch you in the face.. seriously this is a song i'm currently working on called 'ron and sam' which is based on the tumultuous relationship of ron and sam from jersey shore
they are always fighting.. but when they fight they r really really mean to eachother so this is a very negative and crazy relationship song the lyrics are done but i have to re-record 2 verses.. this is currently the only verse that sounds good.. i'm just posting this cuz i have nothing much to say right now but i want to make sure i update !!!! much love!!!!!! btw here are the lyrics to this verse.. (i'll post the lyrics to the other verses when i post the full song) livin lost in life lost lots of life/ but ur not my wife- caused all this strife/ got my time occupied/ everyday im wrong ur right/ u want me to apologize?/ werd nice yeah right i'm not the guy/ go on and cry.. tears will not suffice/ ..ur love is hot as ice/ here we are- goin back and forth/ steerin right off the passion course/ and into the pain lane fuss and fight/ blame game what u did just wasn't right/ i had enough tonight, this ain't what love is like/ so i'm looking for another type/ no threat- go ahead i'm done for life/ u can go now roll out run and hide/ IM SO TIRED STILL!!!
THIS ISNT FUNNIE ANYMORE!!!!! WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS!? i will try to be more entertaining soon!!! sorry these have been so boring but at least i'm updating!!!! i've written about this before however it was recently brought to my attention so i'm going to do it again.. so in this blog i'm going to share some useful knowledge with you
for anyone who needs help in this area, this is how to help your ears if u have an ear ache or fluid or too much wax or whatever the home remedy is this: put a half cap or full cap of hydrogen peroxide in ur ear and lay down for like 5 minutes.. it will tingle and tickle and bubble but that's how it works so just chill then once u do that take an ear bulb full of water and do it like twice in ur ear to flush it out then q-tip and ur done do this one more time if u feel like u need to now............... the "outside of the home" remedy is this: (just in case the home remedy didn't work) go to the nearest clinic and request an 'ear irrigation' it will likely cost you about $70-$80 but it should solve whatever issue u are having loss of hearing, ear sounding like the ocean, ear pressure etc i had an ear irrigation years ago and when i left the clinic i couldn't believe it.. i felt like a new man!! (btw it doesn't hurt) i just figured i would post this so whoever comes to my blog can learn something useful.. try to remember this for yourself and for your family.. this blog will really help out if someone has an ear problem |
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