so one thing that annoys me is when companies have proprietary chargers
i wish every device just used usb and/or mini usb
my phone and my camera both use proprietary cords to function and as a result whenever i have to hook them up then i have to find their specific cords
if they would just use usb then i wouldn't have to keep up with the cords and ish.. whatever
since i've been working out i've been having rem sleep again.. rem is rapid eye movement.. its a deep sleep where u have a lot of dreams and ur brain is i guess like.. unloading and getting ready to load again? i'm not sure what its doing all i know is i learned in psychology that rem sleep is important
exercise helps u to get rem sleep
i've also heard people who do things like smoke weed lose rem sleep.. like it may help u get to sleep.. but i've heard even tho it may help u get to sleep, u end up not achieving rem sleep anymore
i've been thinking about how much i love women.. it causes a lot of pain for me
when i see a beautiful woman i adore and admire her from my heart and just having that thing i love and admire ignore me is not fun
its also weird because i've been thinking about how the Bible says he who loses his life shall gain it and he who keeps his life shall lose it
i've been thinking about trying to think about that in terms of women.. like maybe if u stop thinking about girls and stop seeking attention from them then u will get one but if u try to get a woman u will never get one
that may be my problem.. i think about women a lot.. i really care about some of them deeply but maybe it will take self-love to get someone else to love.. with that said its about like a chinese finger trap.. in that the opposite of what comes natural to you is what will get u the results u want
also i've been thinking about how the Bible says do not love the world.. so that would mean like.. try to stop caring about things too much whether it be sex, women, how u are perceived, money, clothing, etc.
.. its weird cuz as a male u see a woman u like and u want her in your life somehow.. u want her time, her attention, or u want sex.. cuz even if all u have is a memory.. u feel like u have a piece of that beauty with u from then on (which is why u have songs like young money's "every girl" aka i want to fck every girl in the world)
but is any of this positive? beauty doesn't mean u will have peace in ur relationship or in ur life.. living the whole "every girl" lifestyle seems like sexual gluttony to me.. it may be fun but it may eventually take a certain toll on someone perhaps through drama, or stds, or unwanted pregnancies, or perhaps just hangups like failure to be able to commit etc.
its hard trying to process my natural feelings vs. what works for reality.. what i want to do is just bang every cute girl i can get my hands on but honestly what would that achieve for me?
hopefully my life will one day make sense and i will be able to look back and say "i'm glad i did it this way instead of that way"
like maybe one day i will be a real catch and girls will say "hey that guy is mature and he doesn't have any kids or real drama, so why not date him"
cuz right now its more like just being constantly overlooked and constantly not being good enough for one reason or another
my goal is to stop allowing my feelings for women to trip me up.. i have extreme love and hate for women.. the hate is a result of the love if that makes any sense
sometimes the pain is debilitating.. like say i'm in good physical shape.. i've been working out for 2 months.. then i meet a girl, we date for 3 weeks and i want her to stay in my life.. then she leaves me.. then i just stop working out and let myself go
self love wouldn't allow that to happen.. i should really respect myself as a child of God and not as like.. the potential proud boyfriend of a pretty girl
i have to learn how to put girls on the backburner and put myself first.. i'm the type of dude who traditionally will drop anything to spend time with a girl i like but i have to change that because its not helpful to me and my personal progress and girls don't respect or appreciate it
^just a collection of thoughts
i disabled the internet on my playstation 3 because people on there kinda get in my nerves lately.. like they send me madd messages when i'm just trying to chill and i've noticed some people have cameras but they turn them off.. i don't understand the point of that
why would u go on video chat and turn ur camera off? its to the point where i am just like wow forget it cuz this community is wack!! ..i'm about to delete everyone from my friend list
my mom recently told me i preach a lot.. during a conversation i'm always like "well u know what the Bible says about that..." and i finish it off with scripture
i think worldly knowledge is useless while Bible knowledge is truth.. it seems to me that a lot of people feel the opposite way
i think if u know God is real then the things He says should be on your mind .. i kinda don't understand people who say they are Christians but they don't try to mind what God says or they don't try to abstain from sins.. if God is God then He is automatically smarter than you u know what i'm sayin?
so why would u choose ur way over His?
don't get me wrong tho i know sometimes its hard.. its hard to choose things that contradict ur nature all the time but we just have to renew our minds constantly i guess
my goal is to get a new job within 2 weeks time
please throw up a quick prayer for me to achieve this goal.. i think with dedication i can do it
i haven't had much to say lately
so u guys stay bonk in the streets