strength = 0 Posted by poolboyjames on July 29, 2010 at 4:05 AM comments (0)one thing i am dealing with right now is a lack of joy
this is something that has been brewing under the surface of my life for quite a while however today i can identify it today i was trying to think.. when was the last time i had joy? *sigh* ..DONT ASK this is something i want to find in the Word of God: where is my joy and how do i hold onto it? i think happiness is like.. a good feeling based on good fortune or circumstance.. its great however it comes and goes i think joy is something a person can grab ahold of and keep regardless of circumstance how do u do this? .. i really dnt kno yet.. but i truly 100% want to kno what made me realize i have no joy is just.. i realized i really dislike being a Christian.. but i don't like the fact that i dislike it.. i want to love being a Christian but when i am honest with myself i feel like i have nothing to stand on.. no strength and so this is where joy comes in: Neh. 8:10 "The joy of the LORD is your strength." joy aka 'strength' is missing from my Christian walk and i realize i need to get it as quickly as humanly possible.. because i need it.. everyday i wake up and i say to myself "here we go again" and i dnt want to be this way i wake up in the morning and i think about how lonely i am, i think about how flawed i am, i think about how worthless i feel.. i could go out and smoke some weed drink a 40 and bang a girl and make all these feelings disappear.. even if only for 24 hours, they'd be gone but instead i try to make God my source... so maybe God is seeing my efforts, having mercy on me, and as a result- showing me my need for this vital ingredient of joy i definitely appreciate it now lets get it!
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