i was shopping recently and i found myself very annoyed at some things
here's one main example: MIRROR PLACEMENT. ok when i go to a store and i pick up a hat, the first thing i want to do is look in a mirror.. WHY IS THERE NO MIRROR IN SIGHT!? the closest mirror will be all the way across the store from the hat display.. or even better, like this store i was at the other day, THERE WILL BE NO MIRROR IN THE ENTIRE STORE AT ALL! i looked around, got upset threw the hat back on the display and just walked out.. i have workers hounding me asking me if they can help me.. why on earth would i need your help? how could i possibly need your help when i'm looking around? do u have another set of eyes i can borrow or some ish? like what are u gonna do for me? get out of my face asking me dumb questions .. u are in my face asking me questions but there is no mirror in the store.. or the mirror is madd far from the hats so i have to walk all the way across the store multiple times carrying different hats.. ...as if i should be punished for wanting to try on a hat! and back to the workers.. its gotten to where i don't even look at them anymore, i just answer their questions as if they're not even there so they will leave me alone u don't tell me what i want to buy.. i tell you! and if ur talking about anything other than getting me a mirror then SHUTUP!!!!!
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one thing i learned in my life is to stay away from people who make u feel bad in any way
the bible says guard your heart, because everything in your life springs forth from the condition of your heart, its like everything is a branch from your heart i feel like i have a true understanding of that these days a person doesn't have to be mean in order to be bad for u they can be nice, but they can affect u negatively, maybe because they devalue u, or they make light of the way u live your life, or maybe u were in a relationship with them and they left u, or maybe they broke your trust, or maybe they just never call u back when u call them, or maybe they seem to somehow always pull u into competition with their life, or maybe they r only nice when they get their way, but when u say no then they are vicious, maybe u just don't like what they choose to talk about all the time, maybe they make u second-guess all your decisions......... the list goes on sometimes people have an affect on you and that effect is negative that goes into your emotions first then your mind then it comes out in your decisions each of these things are like a steering wheel for your life in its own way a lot of times u can nip a potentially bad situation in the bud by just guarding your heart part of guarding your heart is being on guard against negative people and not just accepting anyone as a friend, mate, spouse, etc. i will give u an amplified example ok say u can spend your weekend alone, or with a convicted felon.. u would rather choose to be alone right? right well this is kinda how u have to look at it.. not THAT drastically, but look at it like.. ok, is this person positive for me or negative for me? let me re-iterate, this is just FOR YOU as a person.. for example, a person who drinks is not necessarily negative, however, if u are a recovering alcoholic, then yes, that person is negative FOR YOU if u are around negative people (for you), for the most part your life will show it they will drag u through the mud.. (with mud simply being "places u don't want to go") and they will affect u in ways both obvious and subtle for example, say u think something is funny but someone else doesn't think its funny at all.. then later on a joke pops up again.. u may just try not to laugh, and just laugh at the parts where the other person laughs, so that u can be accepted, little do u know u have sacrificed a part of what makes you YOU, in order to appease a "friend" guarding your heart is re-evaluating who u call a friend who u spend time with guarding your heart is not just falling in with a crowd guarding your heart is wisely CHOOSING one's friends pool boy pretty much learned this the hard way take a 2nd look at your life, the people, and things around you, and guard your heart, guard your individuality, guard what makes u YOU, and just exist in your lane.. hopefully, this will attract cool people closer to u and ward off lame-o's who bring u down for whatever reason i know for me personally.. some people i just completely avoid and i'm way better off without them just some thoughts for u.. peaCe i came up with a game today
i may not have all the rules yet but here's the main thing like 4 people play it and u have a 2-part question and everyone has to answer it successfully in their own way, or they lose whoever can answer the most questions successfully will end up as the last man standing and they will win ok so here's an example of a question: "name something awesome and useless at the same time" see.. its like a 2-part question.. it has to be both awesome and useless and people have to come up with something within say.. a minute.. and if they don't, or if it doesn't make any sense then they lose but if they say something that fits the criteria, they r considered safe for that round and they get a point what i think would make this game so cool is that everyone would have original and hilarious answers to the questions.. i think people would say some really funny stuff and everyone would have a lot of fun all the rules aren't there yet... but that's the jist of the game i wanna try it out some time sooooo....
for anyone wondering, i did good at school this past semester.. all A's and B's and one C long story short, this semester was very important to me, i'm very thankful to the people who helped or supported me in getting to a more positive place in my life devon - never judged me or dissed me say if i was unemployed or if i failed at previous attempts at school jasmine - said she was proud of me early, like before i even got in school, like if i said i did my fafsa she said she was proud of me just for that family - gave me madd grief but prayed for me lol btw, some people kinda kicked me while i was down, but they're not really worth mentioning ---------------------------------------------- i got uncharted 2 a few days back.. i played it a lot for 2 days until i beat it once i beat it, it gave me my stats, it said i spent 17 hours on it LOL i was like man 17 hours in 2 days.. i am GANGSTA' i enjoyed every minute of it.. amazing game and the multiplayer is sick too ------------------------------------------------ i've been loving this winter weather i love the days being short and i love the fact that there are no bugs i pretty much love everything about this weather ------------------------------------------------ my fam went to florida for a few days recently but i decided not to go with them i stayed at my parents house while everyone was gone IT WAS AMAZING i considered the alone time to be a luxury and i enjoyed every moment of it ----------------------------------------------- haven't talked to any girls lately... last semester i kinda tried to like someone in each of my classes.. liking a girl in each class made everything a little less boring i wonder who i might come across next semester.. hmmm ........peaCe i've been playing my racing game "dirt 2" on my ps3 recently
it occurred to me that there's a bit of a trick to it u drive ahead of time in a sense, like if u see a right turn, u turn in that direction much prior to getting there basically u should begin turning as soon as you see a turn as opposed to when u actually get there with this technique, by the time u get to the curve then all ur doing is straightening out your vehicle as opposed to turning with the full amount of centrifugal force and risking hitting a wall or something when u turn ahead of time its almost like ur going in a straight line the entire race.. but when u wait to reach the curve before you begin your steering, then everything becomes a lot of work i was thinking its kindof a metaphor for life in a sense, its like saying: things can be hard or easy, it all depends on your levels of foresight and preparation u know... i guess this is the reason why people put their kids in sports.. because in competition u come up with theories and techniques that work in many different realms of life nice. this was originally done august 18th 2009.. for whatever reason i never posted it
i am posting it now because i haven't been writing anything lately this site remembers your unposted entries in a "draft" folder, so i just pulled this out of it i was thinking the other day about how i used to really like the beastie boys but now there's not really a circumstance where i'd listen to them in some ways i feel like i have simply grown out of it.. not to take away from them as talented artists, but still one has to acknowledge a great deal of their lyrics and approach in general is silly or i sometimes think about 2005 when i used to listen to tricky a lot i was totally depressed at the time and tricky's music was always there for me, like a friend who always understood what i was going through and now i still have an appreciation for tricky, but the musicdoesn't strike me in the same way that it used to, simply because i'm not depressed anymore i suppose what a person listens to mirrors their life on some level, and when they no longer really get into it, its because their life has shifted, or they have matured or changed on some level this makes me wonder, what have i been listening to today? honestly nothing don't get me wrong, i listen to a lot of different music, but as far as a deep life connection, like the ones i just mentioned (beastie boys with my teen yrs and tricky with my depression) i can't really think of anything hmmm.... if i have no soundtrack, what does that mean? where am i right now? is pool boy lost? the more likely answer is simply "ain't nobody makin what i'm tryin to hear" -kid rock but maybe i will look back on this yr and i will be able to sum it up like, 'back in 09 i was listenin to a lot of different things and trying to find something i identified with on a deep level, which coincided with me trying to find myself in general i wrote this june 25, 09 i never posted it cuz i thought maybe it was too abrasive.. ahh well, i will post it now just because i haven't been posting much lately
ok i just want to say one thing.. i feel like i have a lot to say right now but i'm gonna keep it to one thing ok basically u know how women oftentimes say there's a double standard when it comes to sex? they say "men can have sex as much as they want and be a desirable stud, but if women do then they're called hoes" ok #1 YOU ARE IGNORANT. lol like basically u are saying you want men and women to have the same standards so pay for your own dinner open your own door while we're at it u can go outside and mow your half of the grass men and women live up to different standards, and as much as u say u want 50/50, i doubt u really do the truth is u want to be courted properly, u want chivalry, u want to be treated like a queen... well then (here's anovel concept) ACT LIKE ONE! i mean "he can have a bunch of sex but i can't" like first off why do u even envy a man? like can you at least stay in your own lane? second, why do you envy hoe-ish behavior? women who give it up oftentimes just end up as somebody's baby's mom pop quiz: what is the #1 reason why men don't marry women? because they can have sex without getting married. see, women don't like hoes because hoes take some attention away from women who aren't willing to take their clothes off without a commitment men like hoes, but a man would never want to marry a hoe.. that is the catch-22 that women often get caught in with men a hoe may feel like a queen and she may get the best a man has to offer, but most likely they won't have a future because he won't feel comfortable putting trust in her the number one thing a guy wants is to be able to trust and respect a girl this isn't on display the same way that lust is but it is the truth a man will play with a hoe, drop her, then once he is ready to get married, he will marry a girl who is respectable and trustworthy so... if u want to be married, which i hear a lot of women saying they do... then stop envying hoes and stop BEING hoes, and voila.. i guarantee things will change for u one of my favorite things is dim lighting outside or inside i feel really comfortable whenever i am in an environment of dim light i have some cool amber lightbulbs that r great to turn on and relax with here is a picture of an outside environment i like yeah, pretty much the opposite of what most people seem to enjoy
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JaimsThese are my blogs from 2009. I started them in May of that year when I couldn't work on music but still needed a way to express myself. Archives
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