i was shopping recently and i found myself very annoyed at some things
here's one main example:
ok when i go to a store and i pick up a hat, the first thing i want to do is look in a mirror.. WHY IS THERE NO MIRROR IN SIGHT!?
the closest mirror will be all the way across the store from the hat display.. or even better, like this store i was at the other day, THERE WILL BE NO MIRROR IN THE ENTIRE STORE AT ALL!
i looked around, got upset threw the hat back on the display and just walked out.. i have workers hounding me asking me if they can help me.. why on earth would i need your help?
how could i possibly need your help when i'm looking around? do u have another set of eyes i can borrow or some ish? like what are u gonna do for me? get out of my face asking me dumb questions .. u are in my face asking me questions but there is no mirror in the store.. or the mirror is madd far from the hats so i have to walk all the way across the store multiple times carrying different hats..
...as if i should be punished for wanting to try on a hat!
and back to the workers.. its gotten to where i don't even look at them anymore, i just answer their questions as if they're not even there so they will leave me alone
u don't tell me what i want to buy.. i tell you!
and if ur talking about anything other than getting me a mirror then SHUTUP!!!!!
one thing i learned in my life is to stay away from people who make u feel bad in any way
the bible says guard your heart, because everything in your life springs forth from the condition of your heart, its like everything is a branch from your heart
i feel like i have a true understanding of that these days
a person doesn't have to be mean in order to be bad for u
they can be nice, but they can affect u negatively, maybe because they devalue u, or they make light of the way u live your life, or maybe u were in a relationship with them and they left u, or maybe they broke your trust, or maybe they just never call u back when u call them, or maybe they seem to somehow always pull u into competition with their life, or maybe they r only nice when they get their way, but when u say no then they are vicious, maybe u just don't like what they choose to talk about all the time, maybe they make u second-guess all your decisions......... the list goes on
sometimes people have an affect on you and that effect is negative
that goes into your emotions first
then your mind
then it comes out in your decisions
each of these things are like a steering wheel for your life in its own way
a lot of times u can nip a potentially bad situation in the bud by just guarding your heart
part of guarding your heart is being on guard against negative people and not just accepting anyone as a friend, mate, spouse, etc.
i will give u an amplified example
ok say u can spend your weekend alone, or with a convicted felon.. u would rather choose to be alone right? right
well this is kinda how u have to look at it.. not THAT drastically, but look at it like.. ok, is this person positive for me or negative for me?
let me re-iterate, this is just FOR YOU as a person.. for example, a person who drinks is not necessarily negative, however, if u are a recovering alcoholic, then yes, that person is negative FOR YOU
if u are around negative people (for you), for the most part your life will show it
they will drag u through the mud.. (with mud simply being "places u don't want to go")
and they will affect u in ways both obvious and subtle
for example, say u think something is funny but someone else doesn't think its funny at all.. then later on a joke pops up again.. u may just try not to laugh, and just laugh at the parts where the other person laughs, so that u can be accepted, little do u know u have sacrificed a part of what makes you YOU, in order to appease a "friend"
guarding your heart is re-evaluating who u call a friend
who u spend time with
guarding your heart is not just falling in with a crowd
guarding your heart is wisely CHOOSING one's friends
pool boy pretty much learned this the hard way
take a 2nd look at your life, the people, and things around you, and guard your heart, guard your individuality, guard what makes u YOU, and just exist in your lane.. hopefully, this will attract cool people closer to u and ward off lame-o's who bring u down for whatever reason
i know for me personally.. some people i just completely avoid and i'm way better off without them
i may not have all the rules yet but here's the main thing
like 4 people play it
and u have a 2-part question
and everyone has to answer it successfully in their own way, or they lose
whoever can answer the most questions successfully will end up as the last man standing and they will win
ok so here's an example of a question:
"name something awesome and useless at the same time"
see.. its like a 2-part question.. it has to be both awesome and useless
and people have to come up with something within say.. a minute.. and if they don't, or if it doesn't make any sense then they lose
but if they say something that fits the criteria, they r considered safe for that round and they get a point
what i think would make this game so cool is that everyone would have original and hilarious answers to the questions.. i think people would say some really funny stuff and everyone would have a lot of fun
all the rules aren't there yet... but that's the jist of the game
i've been playing my racing game "dirt 2" on my ps3 recently
it occurred to me that there's a bit of a trick to it
u drive ahead of time in a sense, like if u see a right turn, u turn in that direction much prior to getting there
basically u should begin turning as soon as you see a turn as opposed to when u actually get there
with this technique, by the time u get to the curve then all ur doing is straightening out your vehicle as opposed to turning with the full amount of centrifugal force and risking hitting a wall or something
when u turn ahead of time its almost like ur going in a straight line the entire race.. but when u wait to reach the curve before you begin your steering, then everything becomes a lot of work
i was thinking its kindof a metaphor for life in a sense, its like saying: things can be hard or easy, it all depends on your levels of foresight and preparation
u know... i guess this is the reason why people put their kids in sports.. because in competition u come up with theories and techniques that work in many different realms of life
this was originally done august 18th 2009.. for whatever reason i never posted it
i am posting it now because i haven't been writing anything lately
this site remembers your unposted entries in a "draft" folder, so i just pulled this out of it
i was thinking the other day about how i used to really like the beastie boys but now there's not really a circumstance where i'd listen to them
in some ways i feel like i have simply grown out of it.. not to take away from them as talented artists, but still one has to acknowledge a great deal of their lyrics and approach in general is silly
or i sometimes think about 2005 when i used to listen to tricky a lot
i was totally depressed at the time and tricky's music was always there for me, like a friend who always understood what i was going through
and now i still have an appreciation for tricky, but the musicdoesn't strike me in the same way that it used to, simply because i'm not depressed anymore
i suppose what a person listens to mirrors their life on some level, and when they no longer really get into it, its because their life has shifted, or they have matured or changed on some level
this makes me wonder, what have i been listening to today?
don't get me wrong, i listen to a lot of different music, but as far as a deep life connection, like the ones i just mentioned (beastie boys with my teen yrs and tricky with my depression) i can't really think of anything
hmmm.... if i have no soundtrack, what does that mean?
where am i right now?
is pool boy lost?
the more likely answer is simply "ain't nobody makin what i'm tryin to hear" -kid rock
but maybe i will look back on this yr and i will be able to sum it up like, 'back in 09 i was listenin to a lot of different things and trying to find something i identified with on a deep level, which coincided with me trying to find myself in general