i started thinking today about the kind of girl i want to meet
here's a rough estimate of what i want her to be like height: 5'2 skin color: same as mine booty: round chest: healthy (lol) hair: want her to have different styles so i can enjoy her different looks fashion: conservative yet sexy (note the order) overall look: short, chubby/voluptuous/curvy demeanor: happy and intelligent (again, note the order.. happy so she will be someone i can actually love.. intelligent so people know they can't take advantage of her) religion: Christian (someone who actually knows the Bible who will help strengthen me in my relationship with God and not take away from it or deem it meaningless what i want her to expect of me: progress. (i don't want her to expect me to be perfect but i do want her to expect me to live up to her standards... SO I HOPE SHE HAS SOME.. and i have standards for her also which i think should be simple to live up to) what i want her to think when she sees me: yay james is here! what i want to think when i see her: how in the f*ck did i get a girl like that to be mine? hopefully: we will complement eachother and be committed and we will have every good thing and have our needs met through one another
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aim = aol instant messenger
when i say aim, i also somewhat mean other social web applications such as; anything u can instant message on or myspace, or facebook or anything like that ok.. see i used to be on aim and myspace quite a bit today i barely ever get on aim anymore i no longer have a myspace page i have a facebook page, but i barely use it, like aim i just use it so people can have access to me see the thing about internet applications is, people don't talk about anything of value for example, way back i remember realizing that on aim even if i had 8 friends on there and i had 8 conversations going, it was like 7 out of the 8 people weren't doing or saying anything they weren't doing anything because they were on aim they had nothing to say because they weren't doing anything now.. they say misery loves company, so aim should be perfect right? (replace the word 'misery' with 'bored people') no.. not right here's the thing, u sit on aim and ur conversation goes like this: (think of me as person 2) person 1: what's good? person 2: nothin.. just chillin, how about u? p1: same.. just hangin out p2: word... p1: yep yep (silence for 2 minutes as one, or both of us thinks of something to talk about) (as p1 was thinking p1 began to think about p1's life.. this lead p1 to think about p1's immediate problems and struggles) p1: man i need to lose some weight p2: word thas whassup p1: man i have a headache p2: oh word normally i drink coffee when i have a headache p1: what i have is a migraine.. coffee won't work p2: word p1: my friend is such a bitch, she gets on my nerves! p2: why? p1: she is always talking about blah blah blah blah p2: oh yeah that's crazy p1: i'm hungry p2: lol p1: i'm serious i want pancakes p1: but we don't have any pancake mix and i don't feel like goin to the store p2: oh what my point is, is that.. like when u are bored, u drift into aim or myspace or facebook, and all u do is run into other bored people and bored people have nothing better to do with their time than think about all their immediate issues, problems, and things that irk them they obviously don't really have the drive to fix these issues because if they did, then they'd probably be out fixing their life and they wouldn't be bored so all in all there it is.. bored people talking to other bored people.. talking all day about nothing like a real life episode of seinfeld.. except for instead of actually hanging out, u talk on the internet i'm not saying i'm against these internet social sites and things.. and i'm not dissing people who use them, if anything i'm dissing myself for being on them for so long without realizing what a waste they can be and one other thing i just wanted to point out about like facebook and myspace is that.. like i don't believe people lie that much about who they are as much as they lie about what they are let me break that down ok say ur on myspace, i don't think u should so much be worried about someone posting pics as someone else (although it does happen) as much as u should think about how often people lie about where they really are in their life such as their actual mood, character, what they actually do all day, etc. like this: # of fat guys on myspace posting pics as teen girls 500 # of people who portray themselves as happy online when they're really not happy at all 543,515,649,815 get what i'm sayin? food for thought everything i just talked about is what makes my website so great in my opinion its like u can just come to my site, check the blog or the video section, (most everything is something that can evoke conversation) and if u want to talk about something i said, or something i posted, then u can get at me, as opposed to just not ever talking about anything of value, but always being available and occupied by the internet or ur phone thas all.. peaCe ok.. in the video section i posted kanye's vma interruption yesterday.. and i wasn't gonna say anything else about the vma's... but today.. i just learned about lil mama jumping on the stage at the end of jay and alicia keys performance!
i didn't see this yesterday when the awards were on because i'm not a jay-z fan.. nothing he says ever means anything to me at all, i just don't like his lyrics, like ever.. my fave jay-z song was "takeover" other than that its just like "i'm from the streets, i'm from brooklyn, i used to sell drugs, i make a lot of money etc. etc." things we've heard from 1,000 other rappers so i figured it would just bore me so i turned the tv off when he was performing.. so to hear about this today is crazy! i just watched it online.. what was she thinking!? LOL at least we all expect that sort of thing from kanye, but lil mama just ethered her entire existence WHY WOULD U DO THAT!? she got up there like she had just finished performing! i'm like YOU HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS SO DONT GET ON STAGE AND ACCEPT SOMEONE ELSE'S APPLAUSE, U ASS! i'm serious she looked so dumb.. and to think this is a person who judges other peoples performances for a living.. u would think someone who knows so much about performing would know enough not to jump on stage and pose during a performance for no reason at all --------------------------- anyway, since i'm talking about the vma's.. i just wanted to say kanye was robbed not because love lockdown didn't get an award but because WHY DIDNT "HEARTLESS" GET NOMINATED!? WHY DIDN'T "PARANOID" GET NOMINATED!? WHY DIDN'T "WELCOME TO HEARTBREAK" GET NOMINATED!? WHY DIDN'T "AMAZING" GET NOMINATED!? in my opinion, kanye shouldn't even bother with going to these award shows and going off on people because they literally have no credibility american award shows are little more than popularity contests and attempts to keep wack things relevant.. for example.. eminem's new album sucks and so did his previous album.. and he comes out with this dumb video "we made you" and got nominated like 4 times.. newsflash HE MADE THAT VIDEO BEFORE!!!!! "without me" "my name is" "the real slim shady" "just lose it" "we made you" they are all very similar being semi funny, colorful, and they have celebrities painted in a negative light.. like whats so great about "we made you?" NOTHING and DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON BRITNEY SPEARS CUZ HER WHOLE CAREER IS TRASH mtv just continually gives her vma's and chances to perform (i.e. 2007's disastrous performance) all i'm sayin is, the grammy's and the vma's they are both garbage.. period now.. the mercury prize however.. i feel like that award still has integrity to it.. its still a true honor.. that's the only award that i think is still worth something.. unfortunately, those reading this probably haven't even heard of it but whatever.. the moral is.. the mtv awards is garbage.. mtv isn't even a music network anymore.. neither is mtv2! mtv is trash pool boys don't like to complain
however, today has been rather frustrating noise pollution from cars and motorcycles air pollution from cars trucks and cigarettes bad hair day (trying to come up with a new hairstyle as we speak) bad clothing day (i think i washed this shirt too many times) this chick from english... man i about lost it on her.. she just talks and talks and talks ABOUT NOTHING.. every class she does this.. today it affected me more than ususal though because i had to talk to the teacher after class but she was talking to the teacher and i was standing there waiting forever, which would have been fine if anything she said or asked had actually been relevant or important here's a real example of part of their conversation: the girl: i'm going to pick up my mom from the airport, how do u want me to turn in my assignment? teacher: email it to me before wednesday the girl: do u have a cubby-hole thingy? teacher: just email it to me before class the girl: can i turn it in to you after class? teacher: no it should be prior to wednesday girl: if i take up more of your time with dumb questions will u change your mind? me: has my life really come to this? what else happened? oh yeah there was a terrible smell on my way back from classes.. i don't know what it was.. but i passed a building and looked up and saw a girl holding her nose like WTF? and she saw me and acted normal again LOL.. i don't know, i guess something died? oh yeah and speaking of smells, i cannot figure out why the MUSIC building smells like a gym.. its like proper ventilation is against school code or something.. the whole music building smells like an old sock or something.. it is hard for me to concentrate in there.. i just think to myself "DAMN!!" for the entire hour oh yeah and in one class i was prepared for a quiz but still got mixed up on like 2 questions.. that really pissed me off cuz like i said, i was prepared but just messed up a bit.. so i am going to step it up for next time (anger = great motivator) and another thing, one of my teachers gets on my nerves so bad because he is an old pervert.. always making inappropriate jokes.. like today for example he spent 5 minutes hand-farting and talking about his experiences making fart noises with his hands as a kid and speaking of inappropriate, another one of my teachers today said something like "u don't wanna blow a test.. wait i didn't mean to use that sort of language" ... NO ONE TOOK IT LIKE THAT.. why do people have to make everything a dirty joke? its not funny to me, i mean at least use it in some sort of relevant context i don't like to complain u know, but at the same time i feel like its good to sometimes get things off your chest mainly its like.. today i have encountered many small things that irked me *washes hands of it all* *turns on dr. phil* i saw an episode of dr phil where he said ur brain isn't fully developed until ur in ur mid-twenties
this actually explains a lot in my opinion. its like.. i'm sure a lot of people out there make bad decisions up until they're in their mid twenties like for example, people in gangs are mostly like 16-24 mid twenties is like a time where maturity sets in for a lot of people ----------------------- i saw true life: i hate my tattoos pretty good episode.. one chick got her tattoo of her boyfriend's name covered up the cover-up tattoo was incredible, u couldn't even see the name anymore ------------------------- why does everyone get on chris brown for beating up rihanna and no one ever says "why in the f*ck was rihanna just accepting beat-downs?" from what i hear, he hurt her multiple times don't get me wrong, i am against brutal men but i'm also against stupid women my motto in general is, once someone does the worst thing they can do to u, then there's no more debating just leave them in the words of 311's nick hexum "burn me once, shame on thee/ burn me again, shame on me/" --------------------------- if water is made up of hydrogen and oxygen what would happen if u had a room full of hydrogen, and a room full of oxygen, then u opened the divide between the two rooms? would water be formed? just a random question ---------------------------- its the little things so i went to books a million and the store was huge, new coffee area and everything, a full huge store i walk around looking for a computer station to look up a book and there were no computer stations so obviously my next thing was to look to the customer service area to see if they could look up the book i wanted by the isbn i went up there and there were customers already in line.. no one even had a book, all of us were just standing there trying to get help to see if they had the books we wanted this really pissed me off i couldn't understand how such a huge store with every feature could not have ANY computer stations to look up books its little inconveniences like that that really get under my skin sometimes like the books are categorized in the store, but the book i wanted was a collection of stories, so how was i supposed to find my book? i can't look by author cuz i don't know what section the book is in so obviously, the logical thing is to look at a computer but this store had no computers and ONE employee!!! there was only one employee in this HUGE store and after the people in front of me were helped then the phone rang! the store was huge like a wal-mart i just don't understand this kind ofstuff.. why would u put ur customers through this kind of torture? just basic stupidity ------------------------- today this girl hits me up and she's like "look up romans 12, 13, and 14 and tell me what they mean" i'm like, um.. that's 3 chapters, give me the verses and she's like "just look them up and explain it" i'm like thats 3 whole chapters, the topics change within 3 chapters so how can i explain them? are u looking at a specific verse? she's like "it starts with.." and she wrote three words. i was in disbelief at this point, like why don't she just tell me the chapter and verse? does she understand that the bible is numbered? then she told me to google it WOW. after a few minutes i just asked her to stop talking this is a flyer to a show i did in 2007
my name on the flyer was just james because at the time i didn't have a stage name i started out as "problems" then my life actually kinda became my name so then i changed my name to "j.a." (short for my 1st and middle name james arthur) .. for the most part i always knew j.a. would be a temporary name then later i changed my name to "super deluxe" cuz that was something i said a lot at the time.. super deluxe didn't really fit me for very long so i was nameless for a bit again then this girl called me "sweetie-face pool boy" all the time and i just took it and ran with it and decided pool boy would be my final name the show i did was a lot of fun, i remember being really surprised at how well i was received by the crowd.. it was like everything i put into the songs was being recognized like people were laughing at the humor in the songs, and they were responding to the beats positively for one line i was like "i had homework, but u didn't see me care/ i was hittin playstation in an easy chair" and the crowd was like F*CK YEAH!!!! LOL it was tight and i had this super mario beat i rapped on and everyone kinda took notice like whoa this is neat i did 7 songs that night i memorized all the lyrics to each song (and one was 80 bars!) but for one song i kept messing up when i rehearsed it so i put a vocal on it at one part, where no one would be able to hear it but me so the part came up and i almost messed up but i heard that vocal in the background and just kept goin from there.. it was epic cuz i promise no one heard that except me when it was over and i stepped off stage the crowd like genuinely cheered for me and it was really loud cheering as if as a whole they were saying "yo that was dope, and i'm not just saying that" then people were coming up to me like yo' ur stuff is ill and real funny, i dig ur music etc etc, it was insane.. the reaction i got was so positive i was in disbelief definitely a good night again, i don't like liars
i was just watching a court show and the judge was like "did u try to run over him?" she's like "no, not at all, that never happened, i don't know why the plaintiff is even saying things like that" then the conversation goes on for a minute and the question comes up again and she's like "i was mad at him and so i drove up next to him, big deal" this kind of stuff disgusts me why didn't she just answer the question truthfully? if i was the judge, i would've been thought to myself "well gee, i can't believe anything else they say now soo as long as the other party doesn't lie, then i'll let them win" WHAT IS THE DEAL WITH LYING?! getting caught in a lie is like the quickest easiest way for a person to see that they can't trust you this was taken in 2005 back when i used to work at movie gallery which was a video rental store
i wasn't in my mandatory red shirt at the time because i wasn't working that day.. i just came to work specifically to see the star wars characters and hang out and take pictures there was a working r2d2 a princess leia, numerous storm troopers, even a 7ft chebacca the chewbacca was one of the employees at the store.. he was one of those people who tried to get away with condescending remarks but i wasn't having it one day he said something and i just looked him in the eye and was like "don't talk to me like that" and i didn't smile or anything and he gave me the whole "i was just joking" thing i don't like being mean and serious but i will turn it on when necessary i really liked a few of the other employees there at the beginning, i saw the place was being built.. and i was determined to get a job there i walked in one day when they weren't even open yet.. (people were in there opening boxes and ish) and i told them i wanted to work there i remember at the time i wanted to stand out.. so i had put on a cowboy hat i found in my dad's closet i figured that would take me from nameless black guy, to distinguishable black guy wearing something ridiculous but pulling it off somehow my mom told me what i was doing was ridiculous and said i wouldn't get the job.. but i had a feeling it would work so i walked in wearing the cowboy hat and once i got the attention of the lady, the first thing she said was "i like ur hat" so i actually interviewed while wearing a cowboy hat and got the job.. i didn't even take it off or anything.. could i have done that with a new era cap? u be the judge. so basically this period of my life was weird, i was very alone and empty as a long relationship had just ended for me.. also i had nothing good going for me as far as school or ambitions, i was really sad and depressed inside but i don't think anyone saw it we eventually got a different boss tho, and his name was jamie.. i loved him because i hated my life at the time but i never showed it.. but he outwardly showed his disdain for his life he probably never understood why i liked him so much, but that was why.. it was like we were in the same sort of depressing, "i hate my life and my job, and i don't know what tomorrow holds" thing i remember when i was working with him i was like "this is amazing, how often do u work a job where ur boss hates work more than you do!?" it was so cool its was like i saw myself in him everyday because he wore his feelings on his sleeves, i however kept it all inside, so when i saw him i guess i just felt like we had a connection.. but like i said, he probably never saw it because i held it all in but one day i was mean to a customer and i felt bad about it.. my true feelings about my life began to come out and so i quit.. i always felt like if i couldn't be nice to people anymore then i should just quit.. so i did but this period of my life was really weird.. i was a total slacker with no life and i was always on myspace.. i hated my life but didn't know what to do.. but still working at movie gallery was full of some great memories.. some fun times were had in there for sure nice Posted by poolboyjames on September 1, 2009 at 12:05 AM comments (0)this girl talked to me today.. she just walked up to me and started a little convo
i was about to try and get her number but then my phone rang and she just slid away i should have let it ring, but i had already been waiting on this call so when it came i kinda automatically answered it DANG! i liked what i saw too (minus the tattoos) |
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